I talked to my friend last night the one who is getting marry. She is good. I didn't bring up the rushing part.I told her I miss hanging out with you like friends. She said Im not going outside ever again. She is happy. Im happy for her. We left on a good note at end of our messages.

I started to cried this morning not because of her. I cried because I felt like I was unneeded everywhere. Especially when I go into modeling agencies for casting calls. They take pictures of you and they tell you to wait for a couple of days for a phone called. So,I waited but,I never got the phone called. So,I cried because I felt like im being deny everywhere. I even started to listen to Taehyung - Im young song. I'll be okay everyone.