Hello Flowers,

This is Hailey, also known as The Hale Meadow. I apologize in advance for this so-called rant.  You might be questioning why I created the recent poll; well to be honest with you, my self-esteem as a writer has been going down.  I know it's stupid to compare yourself with another writer who is completely different and their ways of composition is also different than mine, but I feel like I'm not good enough. I am a reader too who reads fanfictions and is amazed by the writer's story.  It's like my writing is a total crap and I can't describe what I really meant to write, I'm like a kid who cannot write like an adult or it's so obvious that I'm trying too hard.  Lately, my chapters are becoming shorter and shorter because of my lack of creativity/thought.

When I put up a new chapter, I hesitate to uncheck the hide option because I am afraid that it would be good. Even though I get notifications that a new person has subscribed, and Tumblr I get several likes, sometimes I constantly think "Do they actually like my stories or is it pity aka am I being stupid?" I want to become a good writer that you could enjoy my stories. I want to be confident in myself that what I put out online is good and there'll be people who enjoys it.

I just..don't know.