It's been awhile since I open this account. So, hi everyone!

Grades? According to Merriam Webster dictionary: Grade is a position in a scale of ranks or qualities. *chuckle* 

You see, I don't know what I should write in this blog? But I think... I Just think. Sorry.

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Okay, I'm going to start my ranting.

Grades, the most important thing in a student life.

Ever since my grade and rank went up, I suddenly become a perfectionist, a monster. Yes a Monster!

It was nice at first, because I got good grades and whoah! a high rank but as soon as the day goes by, the tense and pressure starts to build up.

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My attitude worsen and I don't know how? It feels like it's not me anymore.

My friends said that I, the one and only change. I am not the happy-go-lucky A. The careless and stupid girl that I once to be. Okay, I was still stupid and careless.

I easily get scared and made my new fear. The fear of failure.

Everytime I fail, elicit feelings that I shouldn't feel suddenly appear. The frustration, dissapoinment and anger. I even sabotage myself. tsk!

Sometimes, I want to kill myself for being this way. But I love God and I know that He plans some things better for me.

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But I couldn't avoid it. I couldn't avoid for being this way. That's why I start to controll myself and just think that I should not worry to fail

So, note guys: don't be afraid to fail, this is life. Everyone will fail in some ways but try to stand up and fight for victory!

PS. Thank you for reading this stupid rant.

Byersssssss!