How many days has it been since i started preparing for finals? 14 days? 10 days? 

Two weeks of waking up at 5am and sleeping at 11.30pm. 

I thought I can manage it. My allergics hasn't been acting up, I'm energetic, my mood is good. 

But today, I feel like my soul has escaped my body. 

I'm just so tired, so tired. 

I am restless and can't focus on anything.

But at the same time, I know I'm running out of time.

I don't have enough time to study, and there's still so much more to do.

I have two and a half chapters left for Physics.

Two chapters for Biology.

Three chapters for Chemistry. When was the last time I revised again?

One very long chapter left for History.

There are only two weeks left.

I want to finish everything, I want to study all day and all night long.

But what?

My stupid body and mind decided to shut down at this critical moment.

I'm not sick, just... tired. Exhausted.

Why do I need to sleep this much?

Can I not sleep?

I have not much time left to prepare, and so much to do.

I haven't practised my essays yet.

Sitting here typing, I wish I am studying instead.

But my mind is not letting me.

My eyelids are so heavy, I want to sleep so bad.

But it's only 8.15pm.

It's not time to sleep yet.

I must study.

I hate myself.

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