Hi people! I can't believe it's been 3 years since I wrote my last work here, and almost 2 years since I last wrote a blog. I've experienced a lot since then, which influenced me as a person and also my style of writing. 

Unfortunately, I barely write anything anymore, something happened at the end of 2018 that left a big impact on me, rendering me emotionally stunted, and I went to a dark place I never thought  I would ever reach. I was a bright and cheerful person, you see, and even though the only thing I ever write about is angst, I was actually quite happy-go-lucky and the source of sunshine in real life. That, of course, changed when said incident happened. To summarise it up, I experienced a huge writer block that basically stripped me of my ability to even write anything. 

This is why my style of writing, even in this blog, is extremely different from whatever it was all those years ago. It hurts, so much, that I can't even do what I love anymore. Empty word files borderline terrifies me now, because it reminds me of the days I used to sit in front of my laptop and stare into the stark white pages, mind as blank as the files. 

However, I've been slowly recovering from... whatever that was. I've been trying out small writing sessions again in private, trying to get back to the way I feel about writing. Since I graduated high school, I haven't actually written anything so it's been hard. I started a blog where I write about my views on things I see on Twitter, which I called them "social observations" and I'm having a LOT of fun writing them. But writing these aren't quite enough: I want to get back to writing descriptive stories, and I want to be able to construct plot again (that's HARD.)

So, I have an announcement to make here.

While it's highly unlikely for me to post fics here again, I've decided to move my longest fic here, Castor, to ao3, with modifications.

It's been a long time since I wrote Castor, and within the timeframe, my style of writing has evolved, and I do think that Castor is slightly too short for my liking now. There can be a lot more stuff put in, while not affecting the plot, will enhance the entire reading experience. I like it when I read something that leaves me submerged, feels like I'm there experiencing the story, and this kind of immersive atmosphere that can be created through words is what I want to achieve. That's why I want to modify, not rewrite, the story, because I feel like it can be better, and because I'm not capable to reconstruct a whole plot yet.

I got an ao3 account only very recently, despite reading on it for years as a guest. There are a lot of wonderful fics there, not including the roleplay recruit posts and the Dynamite promoting posts (btw, I'm typing this 15 minutes away from Dynamite's release!), and I'm exposed to a lot of good writing styles that I can learn from there. I love ao3 because there's so much variety there, and surprisingly I got into a few fandoms just by reading fics of that fandom.

So here are things I'll do to make this fic better:
1) Modify, and possibly lengthen each chapter. I don't have goals, but it'll be longer!
2) Move it to ao3, and upload it chapter by chapter. I personally don't read incomplete works, but a lot of people do and apparently uploading chapter by chapter affects hit counts and comments so yeah
3) I'll link the whole work back here once I finish updating there, and I'll link each chapter there from here. 

I think that's all! It's great to get back to writing again, especially after such a long hiatus. I'll need to slowly recover to how I used to be before, but I believe that isn't far away, 

Finally, please check out Dynamite, BTS's first English single!

200821 (it's currently 8 minutes away from Dynamite released :D)