So guys,, if anyone reads this i have something to say.. and I'd be really happy if you could maybe give me your thoughts

I've been writing fics for sometime now oneshots and chaptered ones,, and i'm not one to believe much in these superstitions and whatnots,, though i won't say it's a 100%.

perhaps you know I've been writing for quiet sometime though I'm not excellent or have written a lot. but if you've been around from long, I've been writing a few chaptered fics which i later took down and deleted again without finishing it. I've actually written around 4 chaptered fics which i took down again. 

And now am currently writing another chaptered which i haven't continued for more than a year now. My problem is this, it's true it's hard to write a chaptered fic, but rather than that my problem is i love writing it more realistic so i tend to fill it out through realities and imaginations. When i write chaptered fics i also tend to include all members in that group i write about. And the thing is when am getting into that chaptered fic or story, member or members (who somehow happens to be the next most important character other than the main) tend to leave the group. It happened with Kris and Tao, and then Luhan from EXO. And now that am writing NCT,, with the title 'Stolen Moments' Hansol, who is the next most imp chr next to the main also seems to be finally leaving? again. even before debuting.

I wrote this fic based on reality events so i was eagerly waiting for his debut. some of you might know. And I'm really down in the dumbs and have this superstition that I'm not one for chaptered fic? Idk anymore. I'm kinda really off the mood to continue this again but i especially treasure this story tbh. it's a story i wrote with all my heart and soul. idk what to do,, could you maybe talk to me about this?