I was reading Day6's When You Love Someone lyrics, and I found the lyrics completely relatable.

It was a hard day wasn’t it
It hurts my heart just looking at you
There’s not much I can do for you except
Being next to you, I’m sorry

You’re so beautiful when you smile
So whenever I see you’ve lost your smile
I want to give it back to you
Whatever it takes

I’d rather cry instead of letting you cry
I want to be hurt rather than letting you be hurt
I don’t want you to get hurt ever again

Loving someone
More than I can take
It’s so strange
When you love someone

I want to be helpful even just a little bit
I want to be your resting place
If you think of me on a busy day
I’ll do my best to comfort you

You’re such a tender-hearted person
So whenever I see you hurting silently
I want to make you smile again
Whatever it takes

I’d rather cry instead of letting you cry
I want to be hurt rather than letting you be hurt
I don’t want you to get hurt ever again

Loving someone
More than I can take
It’s so strange
When you love someone

This is a song for you
I’m singing for you
I’ll give you everything

I’d rather cry instead of letting you cry
I want to be hurt rather than letting you be hurt
I don’t want you to get hurt ever again

Loving someone
More than I can take
It’s so strange
When you love someone

Seriously, the last time I found a Day6 song relatable was when I fought with my best friend and coincidentally read Letting Go's lyrics. So why am I suddenly finding this song relatable?

I might... I can't even believe it. No, this is kind of unacceptable. Maybe my gut feelings are wrong, maybe I'm wrong. But...

I think, I might have a crush on my best friend.

Of the same .

Who has a crush on someone.

Even I myself am mindblown.

Since like 2 years ago I've found out that I definitely don't like boys, but I don't find feelings in girls as well. So I deemed myself aual... until a few weeks earlier.

This might just be a best friend reflex, but someone betrayed her and I'm so angry, but I wasn't supposed to know the whole story either, she just told me because she trusts me. And I want to protect her from everything that hurts her. Nothing can hurt her. She's having a hard time rn and I just wanna hold her in my arms and shield her away from everything that hurts her.

Of course I would think of that since she's my best friend, but I knew it's not right when I started daydreaming about a... confession?????

Who am I even kidding???!!??

So yeah... that's the end of my rant. I'll just continue to stay by her side and hopefully the feelings that are not quite right will fade. 

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