you know once you leave school and go into uni life. it's hard. at least it is for me. life had been so hard for me since last year. 

I've been thru so much emotional pain and having to cope with it was a disaster. 

i almost kill myself a few times but the thought of my family kept me going. 

its funny how one moment, you and your friends are the same level , and then suddenly , they're UP while you remain DOWN. 

I feel ashamed of myself. I admit i feel ashamed to face them. 

but after i think it through. we all are given chances in our life. 

i didnt take my life for a reason. i wanted to succeed before i die. so right now, i am on the ground but I'm going to soar high. 

i feel motivated after an hour of sappy tears. 

im going up from now on