in case someone wondering,

my writing is heavily affected by my fave writers in soshified.

english isn't my main language so it's kinda hard to choose the best words and how to make the sentence flowing nicely. that's my biggest flaws.

i learn so much about writing from fanfiction who moved me so much and successfully made me cry every damn chapter, and that is A Soshi Christmas Carol. i can't shake that feelings even i download it and still reading it and remembering it until now. the fanfiction affected me so much that i fall in love with taengsic. if you guys notice, my first fanfic i post here are taengsic. hell, my most read fanfic was taengsic. but guess what? my OTP was taeny. yes taeny. it never cross my mind about taengsic, but because of that one fanfic, i fall in love with taengsic. its just the feeling the writer convey that made me head over heel. then it become my resolution to be a great writer like him/her. still can't beat her/him though, that's masterpiece.

and second, another fanfic that affected my writing style was Endless Season. i fall deep in love with these fanfic. it made me so sad too, even from chapter one. the huge heavy feeling always there whenever i read every chapter. it was so weel written. i read it again after so many years yesterday. so sad the writer decide to drop it. it was another masterpiece.

i am someone who can't stick with reading a series of fanfic for too long, usually i got bored halfway. i really easy to get bored and get distracted that's why my projects are never finished lol. but these two fanfic make me hooked to the core and i just.. need my daily fix of them two. 

another writer i adore is stephanstarr, and of course i get affected too.

why people are so good with words.

always got curious how they can write such a story. that's was so great plot and i just can't understand what their brain is made of. such brilliant mind.

need to improvised a lot. myself i mean. so much things to learn. so much vocabulary to learn. english is a broad and vast language how can i use every bit of it, such wonder.

that's make my writing looks so shallow. always have this distasteful in my mouth and unimpressed mind.

i like to write in my first language but writing in english have it's own charm. charm i can't get out from.

writing in my language seems so cheesy to me and it's cringe worthy. theres so much way to say "I" in my language and i just find it hard to fit my idea in to the language. although i can express things better and use more interesting words in my mother tongue but writing in english just... better.. i think.. and maybe because all them fanfics i've read all written in english. lol

anyway there's so much fanfic and authors out there who affect my writing too, but those three is the biggest factor.

lol sorry for rambling and stray from what i had in mind the first time write this lol.

okay then, see you in my next taeny fanfic.