still
I'm still in love with you
I haven't wavered, not even for a moment
I still loved you on the plane ride home, when I knew my greeting was going to be a goodbye
I still loved you as I went to sleep, knowing your goodnights were afterthoughts
I still loved you as I begged you to see me again, and I still loved you when you turned me away
cruelly
it was the cruellest thing anyone's ever done for me
and still, when I ask myself if I would take you back
over the humiliation
the pain
the sleepless nights
the bottles of vodka burning my throat as they push themselves down
the packs of cigarettes and the dirty laundry that reeks of smoke and recluse
not for a moment have I doubted that I would
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