I'm thinking about taking down my newest story

Hey guys,

 

Sorry to post a blog like this, but I'm feeling a little disheartened right now. 

My newest story hasn't been doing so well and I'm going to post one more chapter, but after that I'm seriously thinking about taking it down and taking a break from posting anything for a while. The story doesn't seem to be having much impact on anyone, and although I mainly write for myself, I have been writing with you guys in mind as well.

I think I must have gotten too cocky because of the amazing responses to some of my other stories. I feel like this story was maybe too much of a stretch for my writing capabilities. I went out on a limb and tried something new, and although I like it, I'm not sure many other people do. I think that maybe I should just stick with my normal style from now on. 

Sorry to sound so whiny, but my confidence has taken a bit of a hit. 

As always, thank you to everyone that takes time out of their busy lives to read what I write. I honestly love each and everyone of you. <3

 

Hoping to come back as a better writer in the future...

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omgsunnie
#1
Oh god ;___; sweetheart dont be discourage. I k ow you have an amazing skills in writing and it would be such a waste </3 I always cheer for you though lately im so busy that I didnt get to catch up on your update im sorrryy wil def do it as soon ToT but lete tell you something. I have a close friend on aff she writes a good story but very little response. After ended 2 stories and she came up with new stories. But sadly she felt so discourage of continuing her new story even though it is simple then I showed her the blog ppst u made few days ago regarding a writer should write because they enjoy it not because they felt obliged to write. It helped her to patch things and your words somewhat inspired her. She has slowed down now taking her sweet times to get her momentum back.
You should too. Take a break clear thinsg ur mind. Or maybe you can play around with the chapters without posting it.. write when u want and publish whenever you feel like it. ^^ * sending love*
restless_maknae
#2
Oh honey, I'm so sorry to hear about that. *sends virtual bear hugs* I wish I could just hug you right now and make you a cup of tea. ^^
As for Learning to Live, I believe your newest story is just as awesome as your other fics - it not even more awesome. I know sometimes the response from readers can be disappointing and make you want to regret writing the story but as long as you like your own works, I reckon that it's the most important aspect. I used to think that I have to write for my readers and when it got too much, I had a pretty long writer's block (for about 2 years). When I started writing again, I realised that I love it and I'm happy when I can share it with other people but I do it for me.
I don't know if that's what you are going through but I believe you're an awesome writer and I truly love your fics. I love how you always challenge yourself and if you ask me, I think you totally nailed the new genre and writing style. However, if you feel like it would be the best if you took down your story and took a break as well, nobody should blame you. You have to write for yourself and find confidence again. There's nothing worse than doing something just for the sake of others', you have to do it for your own sake. I usually have about 5-30 subscribers per story but because I love writing my own stories, I don't care about the number. I feel like if I can make even one person's day a bit better, I'm happy. And you always make my days better with your stories. ^^
Whatever option you might choose, I'll support you with all my heart.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us! Just know that we love you, too! <3
Jaydreamer
#3
Lemme try to talk you out of it...
When I first joined AFF it was mainly as a reader, and I've bookmarked probably about 150 fics since then. I recently went back to re-read some of them to re-discover things that I enjoyed earlier and may have forgotten. I found that I almost never subscribed, commented, upvoted, anything. I was basically an invisible reader who bookmarked fics I enjoyed. A good chunk of these fics that I bookmarked are also now deleted, in draft mode, friends only, invite only, or something along those lines. I say this because as a reader, I really appreciated those stories, and I'm really sad now that they're gone. But as an author, I understand that they might have been taken down because the fic didn't get the response the author was hoping for, or maybe they just weren't satisfied with their writing. I've written some fics (nowhere near as prolific as you though wow) that, looking back, aren't quite what I was hoping for. I leave them up though, mostly as sort of motivation and like "huh, this is how I used to write", but also because I know there are some people who've read it and (hopefully XD) might have liked it.
Ultimately, whether or not you take down your story is your decision, but no matter what kind of response it's gotten, there ARE people who like it. And I know sometimes it may be more about the numbers than individuals, and that may be disheartening, but people are people and that story that you wrote may have a big impact on someone who just doesn't know how to tell you.
But uh... thanks for reading my large blurb of a comment, hope this helps, continue improving as a writer! :)
YX__94
#4
I don't know of what story you are talking about but don't take it down!
I mean, you worked hard on it and you said yourself you like it! It would be a pity!! :(