Never
In light of me sleeping close 20 hours a day and my therapist telling me that's not okay, I'm writing this.
I'm too ugly to be loved. It doesn't matter what I do, I'm always the ugly friend on the side and never the love interest. I've never had my first kiss or even just a guy hold my hand on purpose.
Am I really that ugly that people choose to ignore me instead of confronting me? Am I that pathetic?
All I've ever wanted was to feel loved yet every attempt I take ends with me crying at 2am cursing the world for having made me catch feelings for someome who fancied someone else, specifically my single friends, more than me.
I'm not good at expressing my feelings so maybe I do come off as a bit harsh at times, but that shouldn't mean for you to seek for the stupid pretty girl when I'm here for you just the same. I break a bit more every time I see this occur in front of my eyes and let me tell you, I'm beyond repair.
Hell, the one time I find a fanboy who is close to my age and is everything I've been looking for, he falls for my best friend and shatters me beyond belief.
I'm tired of this feeling. I'm 18 years old. I just want this pain to stop.
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