So, I'm not really sure on how to start this. I guess I'll just get right into it. Here goes. 

I made this account when I was 15. What a lot of you guys don't know is that, I didn't have the normal life of most 15 year olds I knew. I was still growing, I was still a kid. But, unlike most kids my age, I wasn't in school (I'm still not in school) I was ripped away from the life that I had known. I'm basically living life in a cage right now. Living under abusive circumstances, in a country where I can't communicate is hell on earth. Honestly I've been writing for a really long time now, even before I came onto AFF. So I enjoy writing, it's a really fun hobby I've come to love. However, unlike those years I was writing before I moved and everything went to , I was in a much more positive state. Don't worry I'm not depressed or anything, just very, very stressed right now. But anyway, I was in a better environment when I was writing. When I was 15, turned 16, and even now as I'm writing this at 17, things aren't very well. Not yet anyway. I've discussed this with some of the closest friends I have right now, you all know them as authors on here, but I've been blessed enough to have a deeper bond with them. So their names aren't important right now. Things are going to get better for my family and I in just a few months, but it feels like an eternity of waiting. I'm excited, but then I have this horrible person I'm living with that's the life and positivity away from me. Ultimately, it's ing up my creative process as well. 

It was after I had written Body Talk that I got into my writing slump. Honestly I feel like it's ruined me and my ability to write. I haven't written the same since. A part of me regrets it and wishes I didn't write it at all. I've been told it's my best, and last night I felt like it should be my last. Luckily, that won't be the case, at least, not for a few months. 

This is my official announcement that I'm taking a hiatus. From now and probably to August, I won't be writing or updating any fics, well not consistently, I probably will update maybe a chapter or two in the span of my hiatus. Just until things are settled and we're in a more positive space, and it will happen, I'm going on a break. 

I want to apologize for not being the best author that I could have been. I promised chapters I hadn't written, I promised old and revamped stories I never brought back. Please know how truly sorry I am. I could've done better for you guys and also myself. I should have written better, I could have written better. I just....I don't really know what else to say other than I'm sorry I couldn't do more. Hopefully in the near future that will all change. I feel it will, I just need a little time.

I won't go into my situation because it's really more complex and a lot more emotionally draining than what I could explain with words. I tried to use writing as my outlet, but I'm only human, and I can only block but so much stuff out. 

Though, after announcing all this, I won't leave you guys with nothing. I actually have things planned that I will be updating, deleting, and overall recreating. Like I said, I was 15 when I started this, I wasn't expecting myself to get many readers as I do now, but lol when I go back and read my earlier stuff, I cringe so ing hard. Y'all understand that I'm going to delete some stuff, I hope you know. So anyway, here's what I'm going to do.

This isn't in any particular order of how I'm going to update things, but here it is. 

For One Shots: 

• And Then There Was Us - Sehun

Yes, I'll finally be updating that. I'm sorry it's taken so long when I put up the foreword so long ago. Cara already knows that I'm going to update it too. 

For fics/longer stories:

• Million Dollar Man
• Dust to Dust
• Sweet Indulgent 
• Paging Dr. Byun
• Devil's Wish

Those stories it'll take quite a bit to finish, but those are the ones I'll try my best to finish and do as well as I had done for Body Talk. I feel like I owe it to myself and my readers to do that at least. Just know that I'm excited to come back to all of you and begin writing again. I'm not quitting, I still love Baekhyun so....so much, he's one of the main people getting me through all of us. And I still wholeheartedly love EXO, I wouldn't give those boys up for anything.

Alright, I really don't know what else to say. I just feel really sorry and a bit of a failure to you guys. You don't know how stressful it really is. I try not to compare myself, but there are certain expectations that I didn't put myself up to, and I honestly just wanted to say it and start this whole account all over again. The only work I'm truly proud of is Body Talk, haha I'm not sure how you guys feel but that's how I feel.

Thanks so much for the support and love that I've been given over the last year and a half I've been on here. This isn't a goodbye, I'll be back and better. I'll work harder and give stories that I myself are proud of as well as you, my wonderful readers.

Thank you again, I'll see you then~