The same mistake... again.

I've finished my exams. Did I make or not ? I'll only know this in a few weeks. I've been struggling with my anxiety during my exams and now that it's over, I'm scared about myself.

I'll be alone, on my own, thinking about things that I shouldn't. Things that I fought every day, but they came back stronger than the previous days.

I'm just a weird girl, and I don't understand why people love me. It's weird to say that, I know, but I don't know what's so "perfect" about me. I just don't see it.

100% of my time, I'm depressed but I'm a professional liar so nobody know about it. When they know about it, they don't know how to approach me anymore. Which is sad because I've already lost friends because of it.

This is what I call "The same mistake... again.". It's my mind getting control of me, again and again and again. It will never end... Not in the way that I would like.

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Amekel #1 May 13, 2017 02:29:48

No... It will end... That voice will go away even though it feels like it won't.
You will be okay <3
Don't let those demon's in your head win, you have to learn how to fight them.

sleepingprince #2 May 12, 2017 21:44:19

It's okay to lack alittle and to just be your normal self. True friendship will stay and wouldn't judge you solely based on that .Sometimes it's okay to open up alittle after all everyone have their different side of beautiful imperfection. Go seek for help and social support if you had too. I hope that you'l stay strong and feel better soon.