A year back was when I decided to leave my old life behind and sneak away. It took me some time to actually do it, but I remember that it was as spring turned into summer when I realized that I want nothing to do with my country.. And school.

I.. chose the easy way out, said I would go for a gap year and a few month later I was on a plane to England. Then a train to Scotland a month after. Things were tough as an aupair in both places, but there were moments I cherished. 

So instead of being obedient and staying home, I decided to do it once again. I was home for about one month in total: and then I was on my way to Italy! It's everything I ever dreamt of and more. In three short months, I learned the language enough to be able to talk about pretty much anything -  albeit my grammar is rusty and there are terms I don't quite get -  and the kids are the perfect teachers. Everything would be PERFECT,

would be.

So.. You guys here are probably aware of the fact that I always wanted to be a professional writer. I found fiverr a few months back (before I arrived in Italy) and I started well, trying this and that. Made a few 'gigs', did not advertise myself, just sat back and... People actually seem fond of me. I get a good number of orders -  in both writing and translating -  and while it's not quite thousands of dollars yet, it's something. (compared to what I earn as an aupair... sometimes I earn my weekly wage in two days. lol)

So..everything should be fine. But I'm so tired. It's not the sleepiness you feel after a day but that dreaded feeling of just well.. tiredness. I never slept well and sadly I still don't (eh, I try) but I've been drinking more water (the main thing we drink here) and eating my fair share of veggies - I only like a few fruits so yeah :D) so that cannot be a reason. All in all, I sort of feel like I need to quit one of my jobs just for a BIT to get better but.. I can't. The family I can't leave without a notice obviously and well, writing is still my life. There is a pause button there, but then it takes forever to get things back up. 

On a positive note, tomorrow we are going to the first communion of the oldest boy. Which also means going to a restaurant right after :D The ceremony is like 2 hours, but the restaurant is like a full meal, so Im supposing it will be everything I ever wanted (antipasto, primo, secondo, contorno, vino... :D dolce in Italy actually isn't my favorite (GASP) but only because I'm in love with the meat dishes lol Desserts tend to be amazing, yes, but yeah. (we had a big easter celebration and ate lamb.that was a little odd, but it was good.) 

One thing that COULD affect me is that I'm still in the process of losing weight. I mean don't get me wrong I eat like a pig  -  but I also chase the kids around, wrestle with them, carry the baby from A to Z, walk, (sometimes 20 kms in one day) so... From roughly 85/88 kgs which made me classify myself as a COW I'm now at 73-74 depending on when I weigh myself. It's not as impressive as other stories I hear of, but I think it's not so bad. I'm hoping to go under 70 by my birthday (it's doable, I just need to watch what I eat a tiny bit more) and then I will be glad :D It's been a tough fight but it's not yoyoing back so yeah, that's something :D 

hehe, went on a word vomiting spree again. But I needed to :D I miss you all guys and I really hope that someday soon I can be back on aff lol. I wish I could get back to PS right now. 

Kata