Lately, I think of someone. He is my friend. He always comes to me anytime he wants, even just to say 'Hi' or asking about some stupid question which makes us quarrel and giggling like crazy person all night long. I admit that I enjoyed his company, and he said he needs me. So, I always be there. For him, always beside him when he trough a hard times in his life, and watching him happy from the other side of his life. Yes, I always here for him. Not moving, just stay still. But he never remember me. Even when he told me about his new girlfriend. I listened to him, and congratulating him. Even though maybe only God and me knows, how much it hurts me. As Long as He is Happy, then I'll be fine. I'll be fine, right?

                   Since that day, he never contacted me. Not even a singgle messages. Well, maybe he forget about me. But, I'm wrong. He contacted me two weeks later. Asks me if I have a time. I've tried to said, "No, I can't." but the words that came out is, "Okay". We walked at central park, sat on a bench, enjoying the silence that engulfed us. Until he said, "We broke up, I can't handle her anymore. She deceived me,". For a moment, I'm happy.... But, seeing that sad expression on his face, it hurts me as much as I know his broken family condition. He was like an empty glass, I'm afraid he'll broken.

                  Two days ago, I dreamt about him. He asked me to accompany him attend a party. But he left me alone in the party. So, I wondering around and found a sweet and caring boy. He is the same age as me. He accompany me, and makes me forget about my friend. Until I heard my friend's voice calling my name. And the boy said 'See You'. I follow my friend, we're not in the party anymore. We walk together and stopped in front of a small cafe. I give him something, but I don't know what it is. And I give him a smile, patting his head, I know he isn't happy with my act. But I walk further, make a big distance between us. I said something inaudible for me, but enough to make him cry and plead. When I Woke up, he is calling me. As confused as I am, I pick up his phone call. With a little sobs he tried to hide from me, he saidd, "Promise me, you won't leave me alone. Promise me, you'll always there for me,". We dreamt the same dream.

                 I know he isn't perfect. So do I. I know he always hurt my feelings. Maybe I've done that to him, too. I know he just comes to me when he need me. And I always accept it. I know when he said something fluttering, it all lies. So, tell me is it selfish if I said 'I can't, cuz I've had enough' to him? Will he understand me like I do to him? He never there for me, he never spare me his happiness, So tell me is it selfish to let this heart broken into pieces so I can heal and start over again? Because as long as he is Happy, I'll be happy for him eventhough it isn't with me.