Fri, 07 April 2017; 1 PM

It was a big day to everyone

The start of new Beginning

In a crowded venue

I was staring in people, busy talking with their families and loveones

Thought its gonna be not my big day

Me. Alone in a crowded just wondering why I feel anxiety

When I looked at everyone, another feelings form. ENVY.

I envy at everyone talking with while I'm all my by myself

End up staring at thin air thinking where are mines

Do I have people like what others have?

People who always got your back when you are alone

where are they then?

I almost cry, nearly want to cry out all my anxieties & envys' because theres no one there standing beside me on that day. 

12:55 PM, I received a message from someone and the said texted be like "WE'RE ON OUR WAY, BUDDY~". 

Graduation day started at exactly 1pm. Everyone were started to form a line and I feel nervous.

12:58 PM can they make it?I went outside to checked if they arrived.

then exactly 1 PM, I felt like crying because people started to went inside and I'm still outside.

I feel weak. Tears started to form ready to fell but remained the moment I saw them from afar waving at me so excitedly to come on inside the venue.

Two bestfriends arrived At EXACTLY 1 PM All my anxieties were gone. I felt happy and getting emotional as well.

I felt again that it really was my big day. The happiness I felt before when pain almost take it all from me were back. I am so happy to see them, happy as everyone.

Until now, I can't still get over with those moments. That was one of the happiest moment happened in my daily living. I still thank them not for attending on my big day but for always be there through thick, dark, thin, downs and all. I feel so blessed.

I realized I have a family from outside.

FRIENDS. It doesn't matter if my family didn't make it at least I still had my buddies and they made it. 

REMEMBER: If the whole world is walking out from you, If you think you are all by yourself, put in mind that theres a reason why you have friends. ^^