Today, I don't want to. To be honest, everyday, I don't want to.

I don't want to spend my emotions on you. But I can't collect my emotions back. I don't know, just one of those days when my thoughts run wild.

Why is it that I fall into this deep trance where I subconsciously convince my conscious to convince me that we are OK as friends. But at the same time. My subconscious is probably acting otherwise.

I can't tell you about them. You never take my emotions seriously. I know, you have no obligation.

I wish, I didn't make this decision to get you closer to me as a friend. Thought I was stronger than this, but man it's hitting me so hard. 

But again, I won't tell you. You have no obligation to listen to me and know my emotions.

Peace.