read this if you have the time. if not, go away LOL

“Master coco I love the latest prompt you are the best!”

 

“You are the best baeksoo writer ever I love you so much mwah!”

 

“Senpai you have done it again!”

 

Sorry to burst all of your bubbles of praises but I can’t take this any longer. I am happy to read these messages and comments and trust me, if it is capable my heart already exploded a long time ago due to that. But as I write I can’t help but feel like I’M LOSING MY TOUCH.

 

“What? Senpai what are you talking about?”

 

Do not call me senpai. Call me master! Senpai is for the weak! TROLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

 

2016 had been a good year and writing at that time was so good. It’s like the peak of my imagination and everything you write dumbly is good material (LOL.) But when 2017 came, it’s like I have this expectation that everything will be the same. I grew complacent (UGH HATE THAT WORD) and for me, it’s a bad thing.

 

Comments and messages were around me during that time and I can’t help but feel disappointed that as days passed, it became less and less. TO BE HONEST, it annoys me how other authors post a chapter about “TAKING MY STORY DOWN BECAUSE YOU GUYS DON’T COMMENT MUCH” Boohoo.  BUT to see me feeling the same recently IRRITATES ME TO THE CORE.

 

It’s like because of this complacent-ness (LOL) that I started to lose sight of why I write fics.

 

Then all of the sudden, I realized.

 

Why am I making a fic to satisfy you? (LOL CALL ME SELFISH BUT I AM A MASTER. I AM ALWAYS SELFISH LOLOL) I should be making a fic to satisfy ME! I should be making a fic that makes me happy! I miss the thrill I feel whenever I read someone else’s fics. I missed thinking of plot twists and other events that will make you all suffer because I am PURE EVIL! Yes, the EVILNESS (?) WHERE HAS THE EVIL COCONUT WENT?!

 

2016 has set the bar too high for me and I am not expecting to surpass it this year. I will continue to write what’s in my head and that alone satisfies me.

 

“Are you even human? How are you capable of such feelings?”

 

No, once again I am a coconut. A coconut who loves chanbaek but ships baeksoo. Feelings are considered as feelings only if I feel it. I don’t care about you stupid human. You feel your thing while I feel mine. That sounds weird but you get the idea. LOL

 

If you criticize my work then I am ten times worse than you. I am my own critic and I can’t help but say to myself sometimes that You dare call yourself master and write this stupid I am ashamed of you! It’s like having a Simon Cowell version of me inside my head to make me feel bad and a Paula Abdul version of me to cheer me up even if it’s crappy.

 

I’m not going to say that, sup doods I’m BACK! And I am not going to stop writing. I am just simply starting again. I will still be master coconut who is also a potato. I can’t stop the change because come on, doods. Nothing stays the same! So instead I will adapt that change and be friends with it even if I don’t want to because I am evil and y (connection?)

 

Thank you, doods, for being there for me. Even if this coconut doesn’t appreciate you much in words, you still stuck beside me. Keep being awesome.

 

 

#coconutthoughtsfirstthinginthemorning

#Iambatman

 

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thecrud #1
So, will u be stopping to write baeksoo? It just u know, writing is something u shuld enjoy and to be honest for me, i don't care. If u wanna write, just write but to say u never care about us is something wrong to be said. U gave me, a slightest care n it helped me to stand and cheer me up during my dark days. Im happy with ur words, tho sometimes it just hurt me in many way (its ur fic im talking about). N i miss ur 'im a batman' tagline. Miss u so much master.
uwujongin #2
But if you want to animate people, I've seen a writer I like doing a little "question&answer" along with her usual a/n, she simply asked what we liked about the chapter, what we didn't; also asked questions that had specifically to do with the plot/chapter (example: "Why do you think X reacted that way?" "Do you think X should've said that?" etc., stuff like that. It does help animate the reader to communicate and is a polite and nice way to motivate people to comment other than "if you don't comment/if I don't get at least X comments I won't update/will deactivate/I don't like silent readers" (which I find gross tbh, I usually unsubscribe immediately when I see that lol. Especially the last one, it's like forcing a shy person to talk more when they just aren't that way)
uwujongin #3
Lol u coconut weirdo. *flick ur forehead* While it's good you write to satisfy yourself, pls dont forget to show us some luv too TT like 1% at least lul, it always warms my heart when someone put effort to make someone else happy too, like I started posting my stuff not for others but for me but when some subscribed I wanted to make the experience nice for them too but not like stress myself :'3
And another thing....I am someone who comments but not always, it really depends. Sometimes I read someone's entire stories they published without dropping a word, but the subscription or stories in general subscription should be "evidence" enough i think and it doesn't mean I disliked or don't care about something, it just means I enjoyed it whole and didn't feel like it needs an extra commentary on it. It really depends on the story itself. On a different note: Sadly I sometimes withold negative comments simply bc some people are VERY childish and you end up getting blocked (happened a handful to me LOL) Anyways, lets get back to the "normal" comments though. Sometimes I don't comment on stories I enjoyed bc im at a loss what to say or how to express my feelings (also because english isn't my first language lmao) and I wanna express them the best way. Few comments don't immediately equal disinterest :3
Nasyami #4
just do whatever you want master coconut. Write for yourself,not because us..(but please update TT) well we just hoomans, not a coconut (i wanna be one TvT ) but i always support you even when you wanna change into tree or banana... /wth did i write?/ nvrm me,im just stupid rotten potato that dunt knuw how to socialize ..../kill myself wif coconut/
BubbbleTeaaa #5
Tbh if you write fics solely for yourself why do you publish them? Im sorry i just...that mindset kind of annoys me. Im not saying you shouldnt write what you want, but completely disregarding the opinions of your readers is just ... just my opinion, don't come at me please
Btw. Im happy youre back :)
bapexorules #6
I aspire to be a coconut
JangRiNA #7
That's absolutely right. Write for yourself. In the end, no matter how many people enjoy or criticize your work ---your biggest critic is yourself. No one can judge you better than yourself. No one can also encourage you more than yourself. When you seek to satisfy and improve yourself, there's always more positive takeaway than bad regrets.
xm_exofan #8
You are the best master coconut!!
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