I had been depressed for 3 days in a row. There were many problems that shooting me in one go & at the same time. I cried everytime i went to bed, i lost myself, i lost control, i lost my bestfriend. So last 3 days, i had a huge fight with my bestf & now we decided to go separate ways (maybe lol) we were bestf like 5 yrs, but she betrayed me & manipulate the whole story so ppl will think i am such a bad friend like idk man, it's pretty tough situation at that time. and other issues as well, i dont want to mention it so its like really crashing me down. i couldnt get out from my room, i locked myself up.

so I desperately searching something about how to self care or self love, how to not rely to ppl & such. i came up with alot of good tips, encourage words and etc. but i still feel that is not enough, my heart wants more.. like inner peace. oh yeah, I'm not the type that of person or daughter who will confide everything to her mom ok? my mom didnt know abt my situation & I pretend well enough to hide my problems hehe. my mom brought me to the mall.. then I went to one of the book store (Islam bookstore) & what caught my attention was, there is a book "Lah Tahzan, Jangan bersedih, Do not be sad" then i straight away purchased that book without thinking twice.

I read on that night, it was literally making me burst into tears. even it is a small book but its content rlly touch my heart. the book had the answers all of my sorrowness & how to cure it. 

the contents are many & really relatable. One of it is, that really move my heart.

"Berpalinglah anda dari orang bodoh" so it means 'Turn away from foolish people' 

What it means by foolish ppl AKA stupid ppl can be also means by the people who has bad attitude, using harsh words, tend to astray, ignorant and overall is never surround urself with negative ppl eventho you are positive person. When you are the only one who is positive then u surround urself with negative energy, negetive vibes, negative ppl, then u eventually turn into negative person too WHICH is bad for your heart. thats why ppl say, find a good friend who has good mannered, take a good care of you, considerate. it is the same thing like looking for future husband, that will be ur lifetime partner.. u need a future husband that has good personality, that can understand you, can compromise and etc 

it clicked me, i almost cried reading this bc it remind me of my used to be bestf. when i first time know her, she was a kind & very shy. then after she broke up with her boyf (her first love) then she started to involve herself with bad ppl, go to clubbing, get involve with alcoholic & such. I feel sad :') she is now 360 degree changed, she become stubborn, negative & bc she become bravier.. she tried her strenght to go against me, be manipulative & betrayer. I pushed her away, I am hurt by what she did.. why would i be friend with negative ppl? no matter how many times i warned her, she will never listen to me. Maybe she is not meant to be my bestf in this world (dunia) & here after (akhirat)

"You can never win an argument with a negative person. they only hear what suits them and listen only to respond"

I tried my best to help her despite of her family problems, to get her success but in return.. all i got is betrayer. I wont look back at those kind of ppl who cant appreciate me. but whatever it is, i pray for her that she would get a better life & be happy with her family. I wish that she will get success one day, Amiin ~

Other than that, there is so many thing i want to share.

"Jangan bergantung kepada selain Allah" it means Do not rely to anyone except Allah

Never ever rely to anyone except for you Creator. Sorrow, sad, agitated, worriness are came from relying to ppl. you wouldn't be happy if u keep depending on ppl, ever. And its true

Ok now tips to remove your sadness. 

1. Accept the fact eventho its hard

2. Keep urself occupied 

3. Join any club or activities

4. Do no be sad about the past & move forward

5. Surround urself with positve ppl

6. Avoid from too much on social media, let ur brain rest. 

7. Taking a walk & fresh air

8. Do ur revision LOL

9. Always grateful for what u have now

10. Do charity

hopefully this is a good share for you guys!! hehe <3 <3

La haula wala qu watta illah billah