I'm really bad at talking to anyone new. really bad, extremely awful at it. I can't do it at all really. I'm always getting so freaked out about if i'm being interesting enough. i'm not funny either. it's so frustrating because i want to make new friends but everytime i come close i always do something. I wish I could just go with the flow but I can't. 

I mostly spend my daily time conversating with myself because I don't have anyone else. It's all very frustrating and depressing. I'm just tired, I can't I gotta stop trying to make new friends. it's not even worth it anymore. 

I'll mostly just write here and just do that. or listen to music. it's all i have to keep my sanity.