So tomorrow is my birthday and at work earlier I was thinking that it would probably just be me having dinner with my family like we usually do, since I'm not taking the day off from work.

Then, after I get home, my mom tells me that she's going to the viewing of an old family friend that just passed away. She is unable to go to the actual funeral, so she is going to the viewing instead. I got upset. Here I was expecting that I'll at least spend my birthday with all my family, but no.

Then, my mom says something about 'I didn't know if you had anything planned.'

I'm like ' no.' She then says something  to the effect of ' I didn't know if your friend from work was going to do something.' 

:'( That 'friend' has dropped off the face of the earth where I am concerned. 

I told her ' That friend hasn't even talked to me in like a month.'

I've tried, and thought I'd pretty much succeeded, in getting over him. But, after that I started listening to music. BTS' Spring Day has a sad tune and is a sad song. Listening to that made me sad again :'( 

No, Mom. Guys don't like or care about me.

I mean, I have a bunch of male friends of all ages, but ones who care about me romantically - zilch. Things seem to start out promising and then they just go downhill. Sometimes without them even saying goodbye. Such is the case with this one.

Putting all my love and interest into kpop and my biases seems like a better, happier way. At least I can appreciate that if I ever met any of them, they might love me just for being their fan, instead of dump me for apparently not being interesting....Idk. 

What are guys thinking when they just suddenly stop talking to someone? Someone they professed to think was amazing and they cared about? Or are pretty much all guys I've met liars?

Spring Day - this is your fault ! I wasn't crying before I heard you tonight! 

I love Spring Day, just so you know...