Feeling even worse @_@ :(

I know a few weeks ago, I posted a blog called 'Depressed' and since then I've been getting better. From December, my depression went up and down but most of the time I found myself feeling more happier and less time feeling depressed but it just keeps coming back.

It's my dad.

My mum says he always winds me up because he knows I'll react so when I don't react or listen he'll shout and sometimes hit me when I haven't done anything wrong. He slapped me today when I couldn't see what they (dentist) did with his teeth. And he shoved his fingers in my eyes and said to me that he'll make my eyes how my brothers eyes look (swollen and red) 

In our language he swears at me calling me things like and comments '' 'you never do anything' 'what the hells wrong with you' 'just go die' 

But I do help around the house I don't misbehave or anything and I don't like this anymore. He keeps saying it frequently more and more and slaps me more or pokes me really hard and sometimes hits me and I don't like it :( 

i don't wanna cry in front if him when he does it or I'll be seen as weak and I don't want that because then he'll just make it worse and make fun or hit and shout and me again but my throat always dries out and tears naturally come to my eyes as soon as he's gone but then another person walks in. 

Please I don't know what to do, it's just making me feel even worse :(

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KPVIP26 #1
That's abuse! Is your father very old? Cuz of he is getting senile he should be going to a nursing home not left to abuse his children. If he is young then he needs his whooped cuz that's not how you're supposed to treat your kids. I had a dad who used to verbally and emotionally abuse us so I know what I'm talking here. Don't keep letting him do that, talk to someone (a counsellor or something) and let them talk to him about his behaviour cuz it isn't ok.
sleepingprince #2
I couldn't imagine how could a father did that to his own child . Have you tried talking to him and telling him about how much his action have affected your well being? Did you tell your mom about it? I think you should seek help from adults like your mom , relatives , or your grandparents. Never stay alone with your dad if that makes you uncomfortable. If your dad doesn't changed after all the talk and etc it's time for you to learn how to protect yourself . You can go seek for help from social support group. Your dad shouldn't be hurting you in anyway. I hope that you'l gathered the strength to be strong and stand up for your right . Hopefully your dad will realized his mistake and never repeat it again.
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