hyeeee ^^

anyway, idk how to put this in a better way, but have you ever feel like whenever ypu like someone, that person ended up liking your friend instead?

im not blaming my friend honestly because i know she didnt do anything. Its just that, i always feels like whenever i have a crush on someone and accidentally make it obvious (lol), that person will just ended up liking my friend instead. I know my friend is pretty and all but its getting real upsetting. Because it happens everytime. Idk if it was just me overthinking stuff or if it was true but  although im quite sad about being rejected for a best friend, im way way upset because smtms i got jealous towards my friend. I know. Thats bad. But sometimes i just cant help it. Ugh.

like once, i like this guy at our school and (this is embarassing)  he would keep his distance from me or stay away from me or even avoid looking at me whenever im around. But theres one time when he walked pass my class building with his friend. My friends saw him and told me to come over. Usually, he could tell if i was there so he would avoid looking back. But during that time, i wasnt initially there, so he look up to look at my friend-all smiling- but when he saw me with my friends, he quickly look away. It was obviously disheartening and i ended up feeling annoyed the whole day. I really dontknow if it was just me being paranoid or if my hunch was true. Ugh. 

And idk if i should ask you guys for opinion or not. Its just that i dont have anyone to talk this out. If i told my friend, i know she would get upset. And obviously i cant tell my mother-she'll kill me XD

anddd thank you to anyone who actually take  their time reading this hahahaha <3