2NE1 - '안녕 (GOODBYE)' M/V

Hello! It's been ages, no? 

I decided to write a blog to finally share my sentiments about 2NE1. 

There's a lot of things to say, too many emotions vying for release. It is obvious that I am a blackjack. But not the hard core one, but still, I AM A BLACKJACK. I have been with these girls for as long as I can remember. I recall hearing their debut song in one music channel and was stunned to see Dara there. I remember commenting on how beautiful Bom was then. 'Fire' undoubtedly was a good song for my non-kpopper self back then. It became a huge hit in the Philippines. I remember dancing to its verse when I was in cheerleading. God, thinking of these moments pricks my heart.

It just hits me so hard that I am actually listening to their final song. As a fan, it already hurts like hell. Can you just imagine how the girls felt when they were recording this? They sacrificed a lot to be who they are right now, and no hateful comment can take that away from them. 

Bom had auditioned many times to be accepted as a trainee, forced to eat less to meet the standards of the Korean society and that is perhaps why she opted to go under the knife. Minzy practically sacrificed her youth, and dedicated her life for the group. She lost too many opportunities to stay with 2NE1. CL did her very best to lead the group, and ultimately to save it. I couldn't care less if there are people dragging her down. You can call CL anything, but 'selfish' will not be one of them. And, Dara...oh, my sweet, Dara. I know for sure she's broken because of this. Most fans already know about her past career in the PH, how she left all of it and risked a life in the Korean industry, and now...sighs. 

It's hard, guys. There's simply no other word to describe this bitter fact. They may say that there's hope for a reunion and that the fans will remain. But let's be realistic here, they may come back, but they will not be the same any more, and so are the fans. Admittedly, I cannot promise in staying or waiting for them, because hey, we all have our lives beyond our IP addresses. People change, and we cannot take that against anybody. I'm just so sad because I will not be able to anticipate from their group anymore. No more hype and undescribable feelings of adrenaline rush when they perform in any live music shows. 

I understand that most of the fans vent their anger towards YG, or any other person. I am tempted to feel the same way. In fact, I tweeted crude things against YG as well. But I realized that we have to mature and look at the bigger picture. We cannot always assume on things especially when we only know a pint of what truly happened, or base our beliefs from hearsays. Most of the fans fail to do this. In all honesty, I think this fandom is not one of the greatest fandom out there. We are the Syria of all fandoms. We corrupt from the inside, and as a result, we became a problematic group of fans who shared contrasting opinions and constantly exchanging spiteful opinions. And some times,  because of this, I think we don't deserve 2NE1. Maybe now that their on their separate ways, the fans will find some relief from their stubborn civil wars--North Korea and South Korea style. 

Despite my extreme disappointment and aching heart, I'll force myself to look on the bright side of this tragedy. Who knows? Maybe Dara, Bom, Minzy and CL will be better off with out each other. Maybe they will shine brighter in their own chosen careers. 

To my fellow blackjacks, "don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened."

:)