so to cut it short I need to go home from Scotland. Didn't manage to get a job quick enough and running low on money.

plus the one reason I would stay here sort of..ceased to exist.

so.. if all goes well I am going to be an aupair in the Netherlands next month :D I need a break honestly. I feel like this time was not wasted. BUT I do need a rest. A proper one. Tons of snoring, curling up with my my little pony pillow (my sister got it for me but it's comfy) and my cat.. i just need a bit of home time and then all will be good again.

(btw advice: love is not worth it.)