Hey guys, I know I've been on and off with these stories and things, but as you've seen, my life has been hectic recently. After the lost of my child, I kinda just went off the grid, then the father and I got into it and fell off. We no longer speak, but we're neighbors so it's a bit awkward. 10 years of friendship gone like that, but everything happens for a reason. Also in November, we lost our Native Queen, my great grandmother.. things havent been quite the same, but we're all making it. 

 I dont know if I've mentioned that I was getting in shape or not, but yeah. I started before all of that began, then I stopped and literally depressingly ate for 2 months.. NOT GOOD! I'm back on track and doing good. I just want to post my progress photo's to show how I'm doing. I'm hoping to inspire people with my stories and words of encouragment.. may start a channel or something, IDK! BUT look out for updates. I'm getting better.. I have a history of mental health problems, so summer/fall 2016 really ted on that.. Got knocked down, but not staying down. ALSO I'm almost 2 years sober. no pill addiction here! Self love is where it starts. 

I havent been working out long.. about 9 months now, and I tell you, building muscle and losing weight properly isn't easy

42lbs down, 48-53 to go!

8-9 months difference

Face change a little

that before and after the gym effect

about 9 months apart

most liked IG photo lol

legs

about 4 months apart

Honestly, getting swole or buff (lol) and being a weightlifter is something ive always wanted to to do, I just never had the drive and the fact that depression controls my life, I felt I was never going to get started and was giving up before I tried.. THAT'S NO NO. I realised I was holding myself back from a lot of things. love the inner and the outter love will show, Also NEVER compare yourself to anyone else, thrive to be better than the you that you were yesterday.