Today is the day of tournament, the one I was practicing for. I can't say I practiced so hard, but I did put my effort in it. But that's how course of life is, I can't go to the tournament due to some circumstances. 

It's a hard choice to choose, since I really did looked forward for it, but I made the choice and I have no regrets. Sad, of course, disappointed, definitely, but my trainings are not a waste. I had my great time training and that is enough for me to smile with. 

I really wish I could cheer on the team if it won't make them feel awkward, but I think it's best to keep some distance now for not to make them feel guilty. I'm not distancing because I don't want to be with my team, but I'm distancing myself not to make them awkward at times they should shine. 

Don't worry. Regretting is not my thing.