I’ve recently been approached by two people I used to call friends whom asked why I no longer replied to their posts or spoke with them, now the following critique towards them and myself is removing myself as the person who can call themselves a victim but just as a neutral outsider.

1. I have a temper
2. I am judgmental
3. I am selfish
4. I hate redundancy
5. I hate people who don’t help themselves
6. I am blunt as hell (My worst)
7. I have set beliefs (My second worst)
8. I expect you to figure out on your own why I don’t talk to you
9. I am not a child (I am 34)
10. I only like Super Junior and (Taemin – Changmin – Ren - Chanyeol and Xiumin) *gets bricked*

Here are a few scenarios that I will put up and you can tell me if I am wrong or because I am 34 I am too hard on others younger than me, which obviously everyone here is.

I had a friend who I met here three years ago and over the years she and I have dealt with depression and anxiety.

I have Bipolar depression with panic attacks. This is not an easy combination but I also recently discovered something. I think my panic attacks get triggered by me giving advice and people not taking it and asking me the same advised and then when I see that person I can no longer talk to them without feeling like I can’t breathe around me. I think it comes from the fact I offer you my help and it goes in one ear and out the other.

So, this friend often used to tell me how depressed she was and thoughts about committing suicide and cutting herself and her family not supporting her and what not the point is she was always the victim of others then one day to try to help her better I went through her FB posts and discovered her history there was immaculate. She had a loving family and often wrote about doing nice things with them and how fun family activities were so I was like….. WTF O_O? Then I stalked her Tumblr and discovered her posts there were as bad as here on AFF and wondered I’ve told you how to deal with depression for years, I have given you my phone number to call me any time you feel out of luck and with no one to care for you and most important I’ve told DO NOT POST ABOUT WANTING TO DIE AND WHAT NOT ON AFF some people just judge. (Me) Especially because you do it every other month.

So I just stopped talking to the person.

The other a 28 year old friend for also three years lead me on for one year and three months considering we might become a couple until I got tired and looked the other way. I left without any further explanations because that was just self-explanatory.

The third one was just the one that blew my mind. I knew it was going to happen before it happened but I let it happen anyways because sometimes things need to come to an end. A person said to me come join this rp with me since we’ve been friends for so long I can’t write with her I would feel awkward after and her nature is to be competitive so I didn’t want to but asked more than twice so I did it and it was a total CHAOS! The one rper wanted a and though I might have encouraged it for like 4 sentences I quickly said no so the rper who initially asked me if I wanted to join started competing with me intentionally/unintentional who knows but it got to my nerves. How do you start to talk about the character who doesn’t even want to be with you or the person who wanted the ? I HATE DRAMA!

So I’ve decided that I am better off just writing and alone in my own world. I am sorry if I make anyone upset with how I am but this is a flaw of mine. I speak my mind and I am too honest even about me not being a good friend because I am a bipolar depressive xD so here is a little but about me and all three of you can answer yourself the question you asked me. ^^’