//// i'm just crazy for not realizing ////
character traits /
the sun always shines passionate, humble, loyal, carefree, genuine
but sometimes stubborn, intuitive
the clouds cover it up sharp-tongued, short-tempered, thick-skinned, reckless, impatient
background /
► on july 29, 1993, in busan, ahn jini was born into a rather awkward situation that marked her as the 'girl without a dad' for most of her childhood. it was true; she didn't have a father. her mother accidentally had a one night stand after a stressful day, and while she was at the bar, one thing led to another, and she found herself pregnant a few months later. to this day, jini has no knowledge of who her father is, but she doesn't really mind because, well, he's never been in her life, so why should she care? though she's quite alright with her father not being around, she's developed a cynical attitude towards people who's had fathers and don't treat them well, and admittedly, is quite jealous of them. even when she says she doesn't want a father, and that her mother is all she needs, jini is pretty sensitive about it, and when she was younger, she did wish for one a lot, though she never told anyone. because her mother was always busy with work (jini couldn't blame her, she was trying to give her a good life), jini has always been pretty lonely; the people at school bully or "tease" her for not having a father, and eventually, she has learned to stop talking about the fact that she didn't have a father, and even lied about having one at times. due to her not having parental supervision a lot of the times, she's become rather reckless, and not to mention quite sharp-tongued as well, due to her sensitivity.
► while growing up, jini has pretty much kept to herself, and after elementary school, she became more extroverted, and even became friends with a few people, although they stopped talking to her when she went to high school, mostly because of the fact that they went to the more prestigious and expensive high schools, whereas jini went to a regular one to save money. during most of middle school and high school, however, she got rid of her frustrations by writing them down in short poems, due to the fact that she loved poems. it was her way of expressing herself, and shortly after, she started getting into writing lyrics because she thought it would be cool to make a song out of her frustrations. there was only one problem: jini was terrible at composing music. at first, she mixed random beats together, but it sounded wrong, and she just used basic beats and posted them onto her soundcloud, mostly so she could keep it in one place and not have to worry about them being deleted, but after some time, she started learning how to make good beats after listening to a lot of instrumentals. despite jini not being too into music before, she gradually became passionate about it, and her soundcloud quality grew. she also started rapping her lyrics into the beats, trying to figure out how to make her songs sound good, and while she was quite choppy in the beginning, she listened to a lot of american rappers, and copied them, even listening to the instrumentals and trying to rap their parts, and gradually found her own style. from then on, jini produced a lot of raps and such, mostly posting onto her soundcloud and became an underground rapper.
► when she was 18, jini had graduated out of high school, and really wanted to go to seoul and audition for an entertainment company, but wasn't sure how her mother was going to take it, as she's been protective over jini ever since she was born. despite that, she really wanted to go to seoul and audition, and at first, told her mother that she was going to work in seoul and live with her best friend while she was at it. jini's mother was against it at first, but after much pleading, she reluctantly let jini move away, and that was the first part to jini's freedom as an adult. she moved to seoul with her best friend, and immediately auditioned for multiple companies, but many rejected her (multiple times actually). she tried auditioning for yg, which she felt fit her style the most, but they didn't accept her, and jini was finally drawn to big hit. she auditioned, and they actually accepted her as a trainee, and jini was excited. this was actually the first company that accepted her, and she started training, but after a year, she felt like big hit wasn't exactly the best choice for her. she decided to move to chrome, and though she was doubting if she'd ever debut, she was put as a new member for sakura after four years of training, and suddenly, it felt like jini and her hard work had finally paid off.
relationships /
ahn sooyeon
mother (48), personal assistant; hardworking, selfless, worrywart
because it was just jini and her mother, that meant that they were the only ones sticking with each other. jini didn't see her mother often, due to the fact that she always had to work and adjust to her boss' weird schedules, meaning that jini was always home alone. she spent her spare time listening to music, and originally she didn't tell her mother that she was a trainee until months after she got accepted into a company, mostly because she didn't want to worry her. though sooyeon loves jini, she'd wish that she had taken up a less demanding position, and is constantly worrying about her health, although jini tells her not to.
jang haeryung
best friend (23), chef; supportive, faithful, irrational
the pair have been best friends since their high school days, and haeryung is one of the only people that jini trusts with her whole life. despite her friend being quite irritating at times and them having their fights, the pair get along quite well, and haeryung was the one to comfort jini during her rough trainee/idol days. jini tends to ask haeryung for advice when it comes to boys she's interested in, but knowing jini, she never really approaches them anyways, and haeryung is aware of that, but she still gives her advice anyways because well, she's a true friend.
kim wonsik (ravi)
friend (23), idol; mature, intuitive, nosy
despite the fact that they're the same age, jini finds it interesting how wonsik acts like he's her older brother, and finds it nice that she can depend on someone as if they were actually her sibling. he's pretty nosy, but if jini is adamant on not telling him something, then he won't push her for details, but will always offer her a gentle hand. they like to tease dokyung and taekwoon whenever they're together, but secretly are their #1 shippers (though neither jini nor wonsik would ever say that aloud).
lee seonghwa (gray)
friend (23), singer, producer; calm, polite, softspoken
seonghwa, as jini affectionately calls him, though he's more known by his nickname 'gray,' is one of her good friends, and because of his quieter nature, jini is the one to talk more often. honestly, seonghwa is one of the very few people that jini feels genuinely comfortable with, and often talks to him about anything. their relationship is rather relaxed and the pair often just chill, when they're with each other. though jini is rather sharp, having seonghwa around her mellows her out, and she doesn't know why, but it's interesting and comforting at the same time.
jeon dokyung (kyungrin)
member (25), idol; determined, reliable, stubborn
when jini first became a new member to sakura, she didn't exactly have the best relationship with dokyung; it's not that they fought a lot and had animosity with each other, but she just found it awkward to talk to dokyung, since she wasn't sure how to move forward with being a new member, whereas dokyung has been there since the beginning. despite that, after some time, they begin to form a better relationship with each other, and it's at this point where jini feels like she is rather comfortable in dokyung's presence.
kwon sungyeon (shyne)
member (23), idol; cheerful, optimistic, blunt
along with dokyung, jini found it awkward at first to interact with her, mostly for the same reasons. she didn't know how to act with sungyeon, who didn't seem to like her type, and it was all around a-w-k-w-a-r-d. jini felt like she was someone who couldn't replace the former members, who were with sungyeon since the beginning, and with them gone now, it just felt like jini was a slightly odd replacement for them. after a while, though, the pair started to get along, just like with her and dokyung, but there are times where sungyeon holds grudges on jini.
yoon sarang
member (21), idol; affectionate, social, hesitant
jini got along with sarang better than the other members at first; it felt like sarang knew what she was struggling with, and that she could relate to her because they were the newer members that suddenly joined sakura, and although it was good that both of them got to debut, it was just also somewhat awkward at the beginning too. though jini was rather blunt and admittedly annoying, it seemed like sarang didn't mind, and that's probably why she's the beacon of light for sakura.
triva /
► LIKES
cats though dogs are cute, jini is more of a cat person, and has always wanted one as a kid.
eggs, bibimbap, fried chicken and beer those three foods are jini's absolute favorites. she could live off of those if she really had to.
ramen to be honest, jini knows it's not good for her, but it's cheap and filling, so why not?
vacations even though she rarely has time for vacation, jini really loves traveling and wants to explore the world.
variety shows jini finds them entertaining, and often daydreams that she's on a variety show herself.
fuzzy socks although it looks rather odd for jini to wear cute, fuzzy socks, she really likes them regardless, and when winter rolls around, she wears them non-stop.
netflix when jini isn't busy watching variety shows or working, she's binging netflix shows, and is pretty obsessed about it.
thai tea though jini isn't exactly the biggest fan over sweet drinks, she does definitely like the taste of thai tea, and orders it whenever she sees it on the menu.
pictures rather than her taking pictures of the scenery, jini prefers to have pictures of herself; it sounds a little conceited and weird, but jini loves it because it captures where she was at that point in her life basically.
reading not many people would have guessed, but jini is an avid reader. she loves reading fiction the most, but she also has a fondness for poems and short stories that she finds around the internet.
► DISLIKES
dieting jini hates it, but her company makes her do it, so she has no choice.
dark places to be quite honest, jini is pretty spooked whenever she's somewhere that's dark and spacious, so she'd rather not go to places like that.
spicy foods jini has never been one to enjoy the intense heat of peppers, and especially moreso after she rubbed her eyes after handling peppers once when she was a kid, so her foods are usually very mild.
paparazzi jini hates the paparazzi, such as companies like dispatch, newsen, etc., mostly due to the fact that she can never feel safe in her surroundings, and always has to keep an eye on her surroundings.
aegyo because jini isn't one who's naturally cute, she finds it a huge turn off when she sees guys doing aegyo, and it just embarrasses her when she sees girls doing it as well. for some reason, it just looks so... wrong.
loud people jini finds nothing wrong with people expressing their happiness loudly or if they are subconsciously loud, but when people are loud on purpose, that irks the heck out of her, and she gets pissed off.
spoiled brats jini's met her fair share of spoiled brats in the entertainment industry and she hates it with a passion. they are people who've never worked hard in their lives, and always give up when things get rough, and jini can't stand that, considering that she had to work so hard.
insects admittedly, jini has a huge fear of insects, especially the bigger cockroaches and the tinier spiders, but once she sees one, she yelps in fear, and begs one of her members to kill it before it takes over their dorm.
getting up early though it's inevitable for jini to have to get up early, she hates having to do it, and is often the last member to get up. luckily for her, though, she doesn't have to do much, just apply some make up and brush through her hair carefully.
being sick though jini has a strong immunity towards viruses and colds, when they do hit her, they hit her hard. she's usually suffering from a high fever or is coughing non-stop, but even then, her determination still takes her to the stage - but she usually ends up feeling like a big mess the whole time.
► HABITS
scraping off her nail polish whenever she's bored and has nothing to do, she likes to scrape off the nail polish off of her nails - her nail artist gives her a lot of slack for it, but she doesn't really mind.
blinking whenever she's nervous, she'll blink excessively, and it's quite easy to tell whenever she's feeling anxious because of that.
clicking her tongue against her teeth whenever she's forced to do something that she doesn't like, you can often hear jini making a 'tch' sound under her breath.
cracking her knuckles it's more of a weird habit, rather than something she does when she's feeling a certain way, but she loves hearing her knuckles crack (she's weird for that, she knows).
scowling jini doesn't mean to do this, but she actually scowls a lot, and it makes her look rather intimidating and unapproachable, but she doesn't scowl purposely; it just happens.
► HOBBIES
composing whenever jini has time, she'll sit down in a quiet place and compose some music; it's one of her most favorite things to do.
poetry though not many know about this, jini has a small notebook that she writes poetry in, and most of it reflects her real life feelings, and she jots them down in a more poetic manner onto paper.
chillin by the fire eatin fondue well, jini's not actually by the campfire, nor is she eating fondue, but she loves food and chillin', so she'll grab a bite from places that she's never been to before, just so she can try it out.
sleeping jini doesn't get the chance to sleep for hours on end when she has to promote and work, so she really treasures the times where she's able to just sleep and not have to worry about oversleeping.
volunteering as a student, jini was really interested in volunteer work, and now that she's a working adult, that still hasn't changed. when she doesn't have much to do in her schedule, she'll volunteer, and sometimes even goes to different companies to complete the volunteer work.
► TRIVIA
- jini is pretty average at freestyle, like she's good at it, but sometimes she gets flustered and ends up stuttering.
- she is a pro at rock-paper-scissors and if you play against her, be prepared to lose.
- jini's inspiration and role modesl are probably yoon mirae and miryo.
- she tends to have sleeping problems once in a while, but it's usually fixed after she has a hard day at work.
- jini is unexpectedly extremely dedicated to her work, and despite being one of the newer members, she's always proving herself worthy.
- she likes listening to american rappers, such as kanye west, j.cole, kendrick lamar, lil yatchy, missy elliot, witt lowry, etc. most of the music on her phone is by american artists, rather than korean artists.
- she doesn't especially like unpretty rapstar that much because of how messy it tends to get, and would rather watch show me the money, since the show is more concise.
- she's currently studying at chungang university, but instead of pursuing music, she decided to go for a finance major, and while it's difficult to juggle school and work around, she still manages to do it.
- to be quite honest, jini is pretty aloof to the newer rookie groups, since she doesn't really care about searching them up, so when they attempt to greet her when they see her, she just wonders who they are in confusion.
- unexpectedly, when she's not listening to rap, she's really into ballad-like songs, and gets drawn into them very emotionally.
- jini is quite a big fan of bts and wants to collab with one of their members one day, but we shall see how the future turns out for sakura first.
- jini likes searching up people's horoscopes and reading about it, but isn't all too crazy about astrology in general.
- her favorite accessory is a pair of fake, rounded glasses that she loves wearing.
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