Hello everyone -  good morning to those who may be reading this with their morning coffe. Man, I wish I was but can't because I swore to not drink any (it is not healthy for me t.t). I have written short little snippets on my stay here before but I have finally decided to sit down and just actually 'talk' about it. (I considered making a VLOG but my face is between posh princess and dead zombie (barely scraped off some off the makeup I had on last night so) so yeah. Okay so.. I went to Doncaster on Monday, and went back on Yesterday. Took me a long time to decide what to do but there was a bar I desperately wanted to hit so... I jsut went back. First thing I want to talk about it (first part of the comically long title lmao) is my view on makeup. Because despite what people say it DOES change me. Maybe it is a confidence thing. I never really liked my face (or hair..or body for that matter..I also have crooked teeth that braces failed to repair and a gap between my teeth that makes me... self-conscious enough to rarely smile..) so when I go completely bare faced I just.. feel meh? Okay that sounds stupid but.. that is how I can describe it. On Monday I started out all bubbly and but after some time I just did not know what to do with myself... Went here, there, walked in circles (lol), went to a bar for drinks but it just felt a little empty. Didn' dare to talk to people, just..existed alone.And there were people in bars and everytwhere so it would not have been so hard. I felt like I was..somewhat imposing? It took me about thirty minutes to walk up to the bartender and ask for my drinks.. 

Fastforward to yesterday. First of all, I possess no makeup at the moment:sister took it all -.- So once I have cash I will have to buy a load of things... I asked the mom of my host-family to help me with my face and she did. We listened to music and she added just a touch of pretty makeup. I loved it... And I felt like a different person. I have had makeup on many times before (more or less know how to apply some things, like how to hide my imperfections because they are gross and such) but it was the first time I felt like I looked really good with it? It was weird but I just... felt somewhat confident. Still ended up wearing clothes that resemble my grandma's but..I tried XD I need to go shopping soon. Someone I met told me that she get her top (FREAKING AMAZING) at primark... I was like 'wow, must have cost 1241241212 pounds' but she said it was cheap XD weird. 

Anyway, back to makeup. I know that we SHOULD NOT feel this way. That we should not hide behind layers and layers of paint but if some people feel better with it then..I think it is a good thing. Sure, it raises beauty standards a bit too much but..what doesn't? I just feel like it is much easier to feel 'great' when you feel great in your skin and if it's makeup that you need then..so be it. I personally feel really eager now to learn alll the little secrets and all that. I want to learn how to make myself more confident and if it's painting my face then..cool :D Down here I will be showing you two pictures... they are both me, with and without make-up. The difference is so large to me... It's unreal honestly. 

I may be smiling on the first one but looking at it.. the second is definitely prettier. light make-up (seemingly at least) but it just makes me kind of proud... 

My hair color needs to stay by the way. It is a little redder in sunlight than in the second pictures but...I love it. 

So, topic one aside..Let's go back to what happened yesterday. It was a crazy Saturday for sure. Train was jampacked when I went to the city (by the way, trains are expensiiiiiiive. ew, my too ( trips to Doncaster and back which add up to about 2 hours on train cost me over 20 pounds!..that's a lot with Hungarian eyes. Anyway, so, I arrived pretty quickly, got off the train and just..went. As always I looked around the mall, the train station is connected to it so it was kinda needed but I may have lingered around boutiques a bit. So.. I ended up arriving to my destination pretty early, only to realise that it was not open yet. I spent about an hour walking, listening to music, looking around, just chilling.. And then I ended up at a different bar XD Got some shooters(?). I FULLY RECOMMEND AFTER EIGHT AS A SHOOTER GUYS IT IS THE BEST THING EVER.and then got invited to a girls' table cause I was alone XD we danced and drank and just had fun then they went out and I headed to my original destination.

(..I also danced with a cute guy but his eyes were mostly on the others..I was dressed too..grandma like lol. I prefer to hide my body then show it.) for obvious reasons). So I arrive at the entrance of the bar and the security guy checks my bag, then he's like 'you are not from here, right' I reply that I am Hungarian, then he asks how old I am. Told him I am 21 so he let me in. and man. that. bar. Ok so it took me ages to get my espresso martini. YES I MAY HAVE ACCIDENTALLY BROKEN MY VOW TO NOT DRINK COFFE, SUFFERING FROM IT TOO BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN UP SINCE 5!) but..it was just so..chill and cool. People were talking and if I was around them they would talk to me too and just generally have a great time XD I was waiting behind some gals at the bar and one of them was wearing the prettiest dress I have ever seen. It had flowers, yes. Anyway so I ended up not finishing my drink because too much caffeine, but it was sooo damn good. Like a spicy coffeee~ So I left and it was just awesome to hear the music from everywhere and just..yeah. I felt so..preppy? I ended up heading to get some food. So.. one thing about me is that I am INCREDIBLY INDECISIVE. when it comes to food. I like a lot of stuff but I am 'meh' at a lot as well, so I tend to hit KFC or something that I know and like. I ended up at a different chicken place with the best spice chicken legs I have ever had. Burger was great too (got a box meal lmao, couldn't finish it tho...) so I was reaallly happy and content by the time I headed back home. And... it was just a succesful night out. I went to sleep all giddy and giggly despite not having any wifi for some reason (LOL) so...there's that. I highly doubt that it was just make-up that made my day (and gave me confidence) but... I felt so glad i guess? Only issue is that I can't sleeeep. So I may spend my day off lazying and preparing for tomorrowww. Also got lent a great book by the host fam's mom so..I will be reading a lot :D And now, picture time. Didn't take a lot but they turned out pretty OK. so :3

(last pic will be changed to my better picture..that is Sans, the skeleton hiding in the museum. I founds him on Friday!)