maybe because I'm a thinker and I like to think rationally that I feel like I'm an "old man of wisdom" (self-proclaimed). Or that a lot of you on AFF seem to be quite young and I'm just growing old. Maybe it's just that I'm not much of a talker and I haven't talked to many of you on here despite being here for 3 years. Maybe it's because I havent experience any dramatical change in my life that it is very "mundane" and it just seems to be passing by like cars on a highway. Or maybe it's because I'm lonely and I want more friends but I can't make the effort to become more then co-workers/classmates/acquaintances. But maybe it's also because I like alone time away from the crowds of people that nothing much has changed. Life just isn't as fulfilling as I wanted it to be yet I'm not willing to make it change.