Yesterday I knew, that today would be the day. I tried to keep awake so dawn would need to wait for us for a little longer. But I got tired eventually and before I knew - tomorrow came around.

Waking up in a nightmare of endless grey and numbness. But in all the dullness surrounding me I could still hear your weak voice loud and clear calling out for me.
Like a wicked twist of fate the sunrise broke apart the heavy wall of clouds. Of course it had to be sunny today, as it is the weather you enjoyed the most. There is a tiny bit of doubt in me, and my greedy selfish self tells me it would be a perfect day to just play with you.
Let’s watch the birds like we used to do. I won’t let them mock you, and when they sing and dance and fight you will smile along excitedly.
But that would be a sugar coated beautiful lie. You aren’t able to smile anymore, it fell apart just like your spirit did. And there was nothing but broken shards and not enough tape to fix it.
I know you fought hard and brave my dear, it wasn’t your fault that mortal bodies are so weak.
 

It’s the last act of kindness and my last gift of love to you, as this will be our last big adventure. You never liked trips in noisy cars, but today you were so brave. Don’t worry it won’t be long anymore then there will be no more pain.  
 
You felt asleep so quickly and then drove off to the other side. I saw you fighting, I saw your pain, but I also saw the relive and the thank you in between. There are so many touches left and undone and there aren’t enough scars on my fingertips. But it seems like they have to wait until we meet again.

You never asked for permission, you just came and stayed, and when the time was up you just left us with bittersweet memories that aren’t enough to make up for the pain.