Hi Guys.

This is it. I have had enough of all the trouble that i have to sustain. What did i do. Im going to just ignore them for the rest of time. Im not going to obsess what everyone else. Im going to have fun. ANd no-one can stop me. If they have a problem with it then screw them. I am my own person and i hate when people try to change me. Sometimes it works, but that only makes it worse. It shows that i am weak to other thoughts and opinions. I hate that side of me. I hate the side of me that lets others in. they got to me and they are trying to keep me locked away in my own walls. they are waiting me out. Well, im going to crack those walls and build new ones. Ones that keep the bad one out and let the good ones in. I had a 'friend' who abandoned me because i wasnt intresting. Because i was closed off. But the only reason i was like that, was her and thos people controlling my prespective. shakling me to others opinions. Keeping me isolated from people who might accept me. I had enough, she betrayed me and i wasnt going to let her do that anymore. I broke those bonds and strived to be with better people. i left 1 person and gained a hell of a lot more. she was controlling. Keeping me away from people who cared. Giving me false hope for a loving friend. and stopping me from enjoying things i love. I stopped her before she could drag me down. and no i am struggling to climb out of the hole they dug for me throughout the years. I have had enough and im going to change that. 

THe process is hard and mentally painful. I hae to get out of this hole now or risk never leaving it. It may be hard but the new friends are true and are building me back. boosting my confidence. but it will be a while before i am fully content. 

THis is true But IM GoiNG To TRy.