Today I got a hug, but it felt weird. He was forced, but there was a weird tingling inside of me. Am I this ignorant? Of course he doesn't like me… I'm a weirdork. He's popular, and people like him in every single way. I'm just a nerdork. I feel like an outsider. But liking him had made me one of the most ditzy girls. I have dreams about him. Why? There's a lot of girls after him. They want a relationship. I just want a simple friendship, where we're super close. When he hugged me I felt special. Why? Theres this girl that he hugs all the time, and I get jealous. They're really close friends.. It bothers me and I know it bothers him too at times. For those 3 other girl BFFs of his, I'm okay with. If he's happy hanging with his gang, I'll let him be. If I really liked him, I would want him to be happy with or w/o me. These girls they all want him. Do I? All I need is a simple hug and I'll be fine. Wrong. I got butterflies, fluttering in my stomach, after that hug, but of course he didn't. My best friend, got him to hug me. She knows I like him. An she had a chance to get him to hug me. He didn't bother to let go. Until she said "I think you should stop now, because I don't know if I have food." Yes, he hugged me for food.To be honest he kinda hesitated to pull away and it was only a hug but I enjoyed it. Until I wriggled right away and went to chase my best friend, who was grabbing her lunch box. Luckily she had food and didn't eat it all. So this guy? I eould say I love him but at this age, do i really know what love is to a boy, who is just a crush. This is just puppy love, actually more like a one-sided love. Yeah, I really don't know where I stand with him. Were just friends, I wish there was a 'boy' in front of that 'friend'. <3 Bottom line: Thanks to my best friend I got a hug that made my year.