get ready for a rlly lame love story of my lame life lol 

THIS MAKES Me sound like a freaking whiny teenage hoe which I am but sorrryyyyy i just gotta share this because I'm sad and idk Something very weird happened today and I'm really sad now and fanfics are real and kill me ughghhghghhghghghg

So I had this guy friend three years ago and we were really close.We would literally laugh about everything and he was like the biggest idiot I knew but it was hilarious. Our parents were friends and we had known each other since the third grade and ya. He was super weird, but so was I, and we got along really well. We were also like thirteen so it was pretty platonic or whatever lmao.

SO basically three years ago, he moved away. We like hung out right before he left and idk I always thought that I would see him again so it would be fine. But obviously, he left the next day. 

We texted a lot for the first month or so after he was gone, and everything was fine. I guess I almost took him for granted, because after a while I kind of started to miss him. Which was weird for me because I never really had lost a friend before?? Idk I just remmeber it felt weird. One day though, he stopped texting me. He wouldnt answer my texts at all and deleted his instagram and I basically lost all contact. Our moms were good friends so they had facebook but, idk I felt like he was just kind of gone. thIS SOUNDS SAPPY AS HELL JESUS IM REALLY EMOTIONAL RN IM SORYRYRYRYRYRYY

but anyways

ya, so I stopped thinking he would comeback, and basically never thought I'd see him again. He was like a distant memory. Sometimes I would think about what it would be like if he was still here, but that was useless because he was never coming back. 

flash forward to a month ago

So about a month ago, I get this text. It was from a number that I didnt have in my contacts, which wasnt weird because I had just gotten a new phone. The text said "Hey, I'm comming back to (the city I live in) in the last week of June." SO I was like ????? and I texted back, "ok but like who is this I lost all my contacts"  

This replies: "I'll give you three guesses"

So basically, I knew it was him. THere was literally no doubt in my mind that it was him, there was no one else who would have done that. So I texted him back, "If this is (his name) imma kill someone" and he was like "hey"

so basically that happened

so we started talking again and naturally I was like what the fucccccccccccccccc this is weird as hell 

but it was just so natural talking to him idk like he was still super funny and stupid and it wasn't awkward idk i sounD RLLLY STUPIDIDIDIIDIDID BUT IMMA KEEP GOINGOK

so

fast forward

to today

today was the day that we were going to hang out. I really hadn't seen him at all, like no pictures, nothing, in three years, so i wasnt sure what to expect. I was almost scared he was completely different and would be like a stranger and it would be akward as hell. But anyways, soon it was 5 o'clock, and we all went to my moms friends house where we were meeting them. guys literally i died. When I saw him, it was like IDEK MAN IT WAS JUST LIKE mmiiiiinnndddddd blowwwwnnnnnn

He looked the same, except taller and more broad shouldered and ing attractive like I kid you not i was like ............................................

I dont even know man. He was just like "Hey" and was smiling a lot and I couldnt stop smiling and he hugged me and I literally could not stop smiling guys like heeellllppppp meeee this has not happppeeennneede beforreeee and whyyyyyyyyyyYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

so we started talking and it was literally just like the past three years had disappeared. He was still a weirdo and could make me laugh and it was still so easy to talk to him. So we all went to the pool, it wass him me and my sister and this other friend of ours. GUYS IF U STILL READING THIS I AM PATHETIC HOE THANK U LMAO 

ok so we were all hanging out in the pool kill me  b c bod oh my g od, we were talking and he was like, "so i need to ask you a veryyyyyy deeeeeep question. who do you liiiiiiike?!" and i was like ................

he said it very sarcastically so i was like "aha u funny aziz ansari is my husband" and he was like "omg noooo his humor" blah blah blah and i was like kk anyways thats over

but then, like fifteen minutes later he was like, "but seriously who do you like" and I was like "I dont really like anyone also u livE 100 MILES AWAY so what is the difference lmao" 

he was like "aha u right" but then i was like, "hmmmmm who do youuuu like?" and he was like, "welllll, theres this girl..." and then he ing got cut off by my other friend who started rapid fire splashing and i was like aR E U IN K I DDI N  G MEEEEE

SO  i didnt really have the courage to like ask him again bc im a weak hoe and im also like an 11 year old at heart smh 

anywayyyys later I was sitting on this bleachers thing, and he came and sat right behind me and like leaned over and was like "sooo whats the gossip at you schooooool lmao" an so we started talking and laughing about fckboys at my school and at some point I turned around to face him and I just realized he was like 4 inches away from my face and it was just the two of us but idk it just felt really natural talking to hima nd i really wanted to ask him again but askfghakdhsjkhakjhdkjlsh idk i didnt want to make  it weird and I SOUND LIKE A FUC KIN TEENA\GE ANGST IN ASAAASDHAJHDKLJAGKJGDA 

sorry bear with me

but anways his face was reallly close and I just wanted to like stay like that and like his eyes omggmgmgmgmgmgg kill me 

but, sadly my sister and other friend like came over and were like WHADUP EZZZZ

so that was it. and we hung out untill like 9pm when I had to leave and it was just

idk

hes going to be here for another three days but idk if i'm gonna see him again but idk if i want to and asgfkgjsdf

we were saying goodbye, and he was like "three years, i'll see you" and he hugged me and i was like "i'll be expecting some weird text" and he smiled and was like "I gotchu" and idk man 

in the end I never figured out who he liked

idk

we were like driving home and i just felt so sad and I still feel sad and idek 

I kept typing "i miss you" but never sending it i am so crusty holy

I miss him, and I really dont want to. He lives 1000 miles away (he looked it up apparently lmao ) and it al was just like too fast and I just wanted to stay with him for longer. I really didnt want to leave. and it makes me sad.

I really dont wanna reread this bc I know i sound like a sad sad pathetic typical hetero teenage girl but asgdjkgkjdgajk

i didnt really think this was possible because i literally havent seen him in three years but it just felt so right idek 

who knows i mean in three years imma be 18 maybe it will be different. but right now, im just sad.

das my pathetic 1st world american middle class sob story everyone i am a pathetic immature adolescent who has too many emotions

i needed to rant if you made it to the end, thank you so sosososososo much i love you and im sorry u had to go through that lmao