Okay so a lot has happened in my life. 

I've been back since early May actually which has been quite a long time. 

Literally in full swing, I'm sorta back to my old self?? for sure I am into kpop again ahah but like hmm maybe just more matured? (and thirsty omg more info about that later)

I dealt with a hard breakup in which I guess I dove head first into kpop for comfort. I guess it was that and my passion for dancing at school events that really just... connected that bridge I severed like over a year or more ago. It's been really great, I'm sort of dependent on music again, but I'm not complaining. It's just a really great heaven- an escape.

And since i'm back into kpop, there for sure are groups or like songs i'm totally into right now and... honestly it really has just become thirsty after awhile LOL

Exo. omg never in my life would I have thought I would fall pretty damn hard for that group of broken idiots. It's just that they're so... popular and become a generic brand in the kpop scene you know. Like its like oh you like justin beiber level like that popular. And like I don't mean to degrade them or anything, thats just sort of how its seen through my area of living? i mean yeah sort of hurtful but i don't mean harm to the name cuz i'm talking about them cuz im just so stuck to them by the hip.

During the month of May, i was totally into BTS and their new album Young Forever omg. Listened to it like for weeks it was really great. I was engrossed into BTS like until my school had an international day and one of the acts to learn was EXO Love Me Right. omg that was the start of it all fml. Love Me Right led me to listening to their EXODUS album and then their new comeback conveniently came soon after so FML i got way into that and I wanted to reread "The Boy with the Blues" by  FireonWater  (not a paid sponsor to mention that I JUST REALLY LIKE THAT STORY. YOU SHOULD READ IT. BEST OF ALL TIME. it gets in the real in terms of like a victim and how the victim's life events affect him. so if you're chill with sensitive and trigger warning topics, this is for you. You really should read it. Honestly just try it out. It's torn my heart and made me cry so many times.) cuz I just THAT STORY IS A LEGACY and that name was forever ingrained to my soul after I read that like when it was being UPDATED. Like 3 years ago and heaven forbid whatever reminded me of that story, I just read it and cuz it's an kaisoo fic I just.... THIS WAS MY DOWNSPIRAL INTO EXO. it's really terrible and so after that i've just been reading way too many exo fics for my liking and apetite im just. ING i was so into Baekhyun at one point and then and then friggin DO KYUNGSOO. omg and rn im still like really into DO KYUNGSOO and like it's sorta at a point where i think he's better than Baekkie and like omg i'm like so thirsty for him or somethin. 

WHY? well okay ill show you the eff why.

Well theres that AND his fockin voice like srs how can you not melt at it. He's real like simple and like deep with it like he's so sincere. And like it doesn't help the fact that I can totally tell he isn't the best at english pronunciations, so he practices so hard on them in order to sound fluent. WHICH IS WHY HE SOUNDS SO CLEAR WHEN HE SINGS THE SONGS but when he stumbles songs he doesnt know too well by lyrics, you hear the thickest accent ever omg. It killed me like warmed my heart cuz the moment I heard his slip, I knew that he just works so hard to get it right. mainly cuz i was so amazed how fluent he was when he sang all these english songs i found on youtube LOL. MY RAMBLING IS STARTING TO BE WEIRD AND DOESNT MAKE SENSE RIGHT???? sorry LOL

OKAY. but you know theres one thing that ticks me when it comes to byun baek and do kyung. their hair omg. OKAY so i showed you kyung's red hair. LIKE srs that was THE ERA for him (i think WOLF era???). Like seriously he looked so great with long hair and how it was swept to the side with a side shave omg. and the RED is just such a great match with his skintone. It just it was so hot i was/ and still am so thirsty for him in that look. BUT he has kept his hair short like for the past couple comebacks and it makes him look like a younger and dorkier person and like its not like i mind like he's totally adorable like that but i just prefer his dyed and longer hair days cuz idk i guess i thirst for HOT looks and not cute looks LOL its k kyunggie i still friggin love you rn. and like baekkie is having like the best ERA RN with EX'ACT. omg his hair is spot on rn but like wolf era was sorta not for him imo. idk its like each idol has an era where like IT WAS JUST MADE FOR THEM. yeah for kyung it was wolf and for baek its monster/lucky one. cuz hot damn baek's smile is killing me rn. esp the hair holyyy.

Okay so the real question rn is... Monster  or Lucky One??? and tbh as much as i like monster, i am addicted to Lucky One. Like honestly that song is totally underrated it is THE BOMB it is my holy water rn. It's so good and catchy and i just I WANNA LEARN THEIR DANCE. 

tbh i just can i just grow up to be a dancer or somethin like i love dancing and im just too much of a lazy to try pursuing that as a hobby LOL im terrible.  

but yeah thats my life rn. school's over, summer's here so i'm just reading as many fics a day LOL man i'm having the best unproductive time rn. even tho i have drivers school- 

ugh, ill just stop here lol. glad to be back guys :) back home AHAH and away from stressing relationship problems. I'M FINALYL 17 omg. I joined this site like 5 years ago omg i was just 12 thats just wow. i'm such a veteran LOL

OH BEFORE I GO- FOCKIN PARK CHANYEOL. COME HERE YOU, YOU , YOU TALENTED . YOU TALENTED, HOT . serious like how could I not have seen sooner that he was such a talented head of hair? he could SING SO WELL omg his voice melts me I never knew he's such a singer omg he can do solos i fockin swear- okay he could sing, dance, rap, compose, play guitar, piano, AND ACT LIKE WHUUUU, and like I HAVE YET TO FIND OUT MORE LIKE FOCKIN HE DOES EVERYTHING AND LIKE REAL FOCKIN WELL. omg. his voice still surprises me tbh like how did i not see this sooner. he's such a talented boy like honestly, he deserves more. he's just... ugh his spotlight, i've found it, and i will praise it till the very end. You've got my support till the end, brotha! <3 love youuuu

but yeah kk imma stop AHAH man im a senior now;; time flies, right?

I FORGOT i recently got into Dean (cuz i found out he made Growl and Unfair xDDDDDDD) HE'S A REAL GOOD SOLOIST. no lie he is like totally the type to keep me in chill vibes no lie he has that style that totally makes me close my eyes and shiver. GO CHECK HIM OUT- DEAN. i reccomend it ;) <3 kk