I'm scaredT^T

So y'all know that my 13th birthday is coming nearer and nearer right?And I always said that I'm not looking pfrward to it but the thing is.....I'm scared.....

My parents payed less and less attention to me as I get older and people would treat me as an older person because I don't look like a kid....but the thing really is......they give me those because I'm the only child they have left but what will happen if I'm not anymore?

I don't wanna lose their attention and stuff.....I know. I sound like I'm being bratty and stuff like that but.....I just wanted attention from my parents......I wanted to be treated like a child again......like I never was......they didn't give me hugs, kisses and coos when I was a kid.....I was barely allowed to leave the house.....I didn't get to experience youth like I did now....this is why I act like a kid.....because I just wanna be treated like one.....for once.......

I'm scared of growing old.....I'm scared of growing up........I'm scared of the future........I just wanna stay in the past.... please help me

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Cha_nn #1
I am the oldest of six and 18 at the moment. I'm 18 and i'm barely allowed to go outside and life like the other kids, but you know what I don't care cause I'll have lots of time alone when I leave the house and I know I'll miss my family when that happens. That's why I don't complain, cause I know my time like this is short. And even I am afraid of growing up, I'm graduating in a week and I still don't know what I wanne do with my live.
I to am afraid of growing up but not ashamed of still being a child because you'll be a grown up way longer then you're a child.
You're turning 13, that's a scary age because lots of things change, but believe me when I say that's amazing too because I learned a lot at 13.
It's ok to be afraid of growing up, just remember you're not alone ;) We're all afraid in the end
Happy Birthday too you and pls be happy :* <3
sleepingprince #2
I think i can understand to you at certain point.. As a child even now i still hope that i get to experience being a "princess" from my dad.. My dad is fine but he didnt know how to expressed himself so we dont really talk that much and all. So whenever I saw child sitting on their father's shoulder , dad holding umbrella for the child and etc deep down I wish i get to experieced it but I know I cant since i'm an adult now ...
Minini #3
Ah, yes, I feel you. I was so scared when I was your age, and honestly, even a few years later, I still am. And there will be tough times, but you know what? For now, just enjoy it. Feel free to be yourself. Don't feel the need to act mature (I personally didn't really get to act as a child when I was of proper age so I often release my more immature and needy side now, demanding hugs and wearing cartoon clothes and stuff, it still feels good). With time, you'll realise life doesn't really that much - you're heading in an age that can be painful, not gonna lie, but it WILL give you amazing, beautiful, precious memories, no doubts on that. So enjoy yourself :)
19ARMY923457 #4
It's okay^^ I'm 18 and my mom is still spoiling me as if I'm 5. Everytime I want some of her attention, I go to kiss her, hug her and everything^^ I act like a child and it always work. You have to keep in mind that even if you're 30, you'll always be a child for your parents. And I know that it's scary to grow up and all but when you're in it, in the 'real life', it's not that scary at all. It even better than childhood. Adulthood is always scary for everyone but no need to be worried of it. It's a totally different world where you always have a place and you can go back to childhood everytime you feel like it^^
You don't have to be scared of growing up because that's how life is. And if you're still scared, you can talk about it with your parents. They will appease you and make you feel confident in yourself ;-)
mehjik #5
It's okayy~~~ why not start trying to interact more with them? If you're comfortable enough tell them about your worries. You're their child, and you'll always be no matter what :)
hallyuu #6
Honestly, just keep talking to your parents. Tell them about your day, what you learn in school, about a funny story you heard, etc. etc. That way you can stay close. Listen to your parents when they talk and they should do the same for you. Don't worry about losing their attention, you're their kid!

Also, life has amazing things to offer you. Many memories are yet to be made so look forward to that! There is so much that you will do as you get older I don't know about you, but that makes me excited. Think about all the future friends you will make, the future trips you will take, etc. etc.

It's okay to be scared, that's what makes it exciting and worthwhile right? Be brave. Fighting :)
Tae_Yeon_Kim #7
I'm sure you can have all of it(kisses,hugs and such) if you talk to them..
Every parents love their children so don't feel sad xD
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