So... if you guys read my previous blogs, it was about my ex... He's off topic but maybe some of you will be waiting for an update about it, I guess (I'm not really good at blogging and stuff) but yeah, this blog is NOT about my ty piece of ex.

I have this coworker, he wanted to kill himself tonight. Of course, I wasn't just going to sit there and do nothing. So when he FB messaged me about this, I immediately tried to stop him. Naturally, he didn't listen to me but after about 30 minutes of rambling nonsense to him about why he shouldn't do it, he finally said that he won't do it. He kept saying, "I won't do it, you won't let me." He told me he was going to the lake early in the morning. He told me the exact time so if I never talked him out of it, I would have called the cops and tell them about it. But yeah, I was successful at talking him out of it and he kept asking why I tried so hard. I told him the truth; "I only treated you the way I want people to treat me." He replied with, "See? You're just too... nvm." That was the first hint I got that he kind of liked me in a way(?) And then he went on to apologise and to say that he was just really depressed. I responded with, "Think of the happy moments you had and all the ones that you will have one day." And then he said, "I have one moment, but I'll keep that to myself." I kind of got a hint (my second hint about him taking a liking of me) that it was this moment, the moment I didn't give up on him. Then, I proceeded to tell him, "Not just one moment, because one day that one moment will become the moment that breaks your heart everytime you think about it. Even if you don't have a lot of happy moments, have at least a few so that you don't depend your happiness so much on that one moment."

The conversation kept going, but eventually, we said goodnight to each other and that was that. Of course I felt relieved that I saved a life, but I know one day I will destroy it once again after I decline his feelings towards me. I hate life. Why can't we all just live without feelings?