I'm sorry but i really need to let out this. You know, i have been liking sj for 6years already and somehow, along those years,  i adore Kangin. A lot. Of course, i was mad, upset, dissapointed w/ him. But now, i really miss him so much. I just want to scream out loud for him to come back. I miss him. I miss seeing his smile. And seeing the last pic of him w/ the baby, smiling so happily, hurt my heart. I keep thinking "can i see that smile again, in the future?" , "what if this is the last time i see him smiling?", "can i see him again next times?" . You know, what i love the most abt Kangin is his voice. That husky voice. The voice that i loves the most in SJ after Yesung's. And to think that i wont listen to his voice again really break my heart to piece. I know i'm selfish, but i really want him to come back, showing us himself, asking forgiveness directly to us. Not this, hiding himself from us, his fans and the public. But what can i do? It's not going to happen, at least not in the near future. Now, i can just wish, pray and hoping that when the time right, he will come back.