He has the priviledge of sharing about his girlfriend and how he is attached. I can't, I won't, for fear of backlash. Even if the class turns out to be supportive. I'm so jealous I can explode. He says he's surprised he could be open about his girlfriend and I wish I could be open. I know that deep inside, our relationship is shameful, it's shameful because he dated a minor, it's shameful because I accepted his advances.