this hateful feeling

am i not allowed to be happy?with piper power,i just want to stop everything surround me.with paige power,i want to orb where no one can find me.but i never want phoebe power,because i dont want to know my future eventhough i can predict it.i should just give up,right?i should just accept the reality,right?because fantasy and reality are two very22222233 different things.i should never keep my hope high.that is the only way,right?after all,at the very end, we will alone and forever alone.i want to runaway.i want to just shut down myself.just watch others to be happy.thats the only way for you.just watch.just stand beside.never in between.never....never.....

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DemonProcrastiNerd #1 May 21, 2016 15:21:46

Hi! I know the feeling, life can really and it feels like happiness is something everyone else is allowed except you. You'll find it someday. I think we're all here right now looking for our happiness. And maybe we can't find it in the people around us. Maybe for now our happiness is being on this site and making friends and reading stories that make us feel better and have hope. It's okay to not accept reality. I don't accept reality. Many of us here don't. That's why we write. To escape. And maybe someday, we'll find that happiness. And when we do, we'll truly cherish it. I got my heart broken over a year ago and I'm still getting over it, it's okay to feel detached. I've been feeling like that for a while now, and I've realised that as long as I have my closest friends who are there for me, its okay to feel broken. Because you are not broken, you're undergoing some updates that are taking a bit longer to finish patching up the previous software.
Also, you made Charmed references in that and that made my day <3