Dont mind me of writing this post. Was feeling upset due to my mistake in work. I somehow feel stupid since I can't manage something that is so easy. The truth, I hate myself so much that I didn't know how to survive with that feeling. I barely speak about my work to my family, because I know that I'm about to break into tears when I thinked about it.

My mom advised me to not thinked so much about the mistakes that I made. But the more I tried to forget, the frequent I rcecall that moment. I planned to quit my job, but I can't leave yet without looking for another job yet. If only I know what job scope suits me more. I'm getting tired of life for now. Partly, I felt like ending everything in one way. All I did was to hold on with that negative emotion before I really did something stupid in ny life... What is life anyway??? *sigh*