One year... of watching music videos, tv guestings, dramas and movies, live performances and even attending your concert.

One year... of listening to your albums and special releases, cover songs and radio guestings.

One year... of stalking and checking out your updates, be it thru IG, FB, Tumblr and other social media sites.

One year... of reading news and features about your group and when real life updates seem not enough and satisfying to me, sometimes disappointing and even to the point of being heartbreaking (cue departures and injuries), I resorted to reading fanfiction which opened up a brand new world of Exo and its endless possibilities and promises, heartaches and devastation etc (the list could go on but I am running out of words due to way too many feels so I am keeping it short).

One year... And while I regret the time I haven't paid you the attention you deserve, I still am grateful for the chance to fall in love with everything you are. This one year of being with Exo is one of the most exhilarating experiences I have had being a fan, not just of Kpop, but a fan of anything in general. Words fail me in expressing how lucky I am being an Exo L after all this time but I'd say I felt more humane than I used to be a year ago, with all the emotions and feels I have experienced from being your fan, be it positive or negative. I am happy to know I am capable of feeling and being this way, even feeling the need to express them and bare myself for others to criticize and to spazz with. At least I got to know myself more and appreciated things I never did before, all thanks to Exo.

One year... for now, but more to come. I plan to stick by you, whether it's Exo or just Luhan, or just Tao or just Kris. While it's so much better if it's OT12 I am aware it's a long shot dream that this planet may never see again but I am always happy to know, that once upon a time, 12 boys from Exo planet dropped by our humble Earth and found love among humanity that they decided to stay, albeit eventual separate journeys they took afterwards. I am proud to have seen them grow and mature the way they have become throughout their idol carreers so far, that got me thinking, life isn't so bad at all.

Looking back, from April 2015 until this present day, this will always be remembered as time well-spent with you, boys. Thank you. (I'm sorry). I love you.

Your Exo L until the end, xiu_mine.