why do I feel like dying?

I feel so depressed right now.

I don't know why.

But I feel like nothing's working, and that nothing will work out.

I know this feeling will pass but I just need to get this out. It's the middle of the night here and I'm yet on my bed.

I sometimes fear for my life. I fear myself of doing something irrational.

As of now, I'm thinking of dying. I'm thinking of letting everyone around me down. I'm thinking of things that I'd rather not say.

Why do I feel this way? Why?

I have no one to talk to about this. My friends come to me in search of answers to their problems but I, on the other hand, go to no one.

It's almost every day now, that I sit alone at midnight wondering what went wrong in my mind. I'm wondering what's going on in my mind.

I can feel my body ache, and I can feel the need to release my emotions. But tears don't help if I'm just going to pretend that everything is fine afterwards.

Anyways I'm going to pretend everything is fine when the sun comes up tomorrow.

And I'll have to smile through my day again.

Maybe that's why I feel like dying.

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fmSekai #1
we're in the same case, sweetheart. i'm that kind of 'perfect girl'. i finished my assignments on time, i laughed a lot. i'm happy. but the truth is, i'm scared of nights. i'm scared of going alone, insinde my room. because that, when i'm at my worst. theres nothing wrong. i have no problem. yet i'm drowning in feelings. i got anxiety attack and i harm myself. i cant sleep at night. its like something telling me to take the blade and just.. yknow.. and when im out of this room, i'll be that happy person again. its like last night never happened. its okay, i feel you. its hard, i know, but we can get through this.

god im saying something that i cant do myself. i cant stop this pain..
shouvr #2
oh nooo please don't do anything that'll harm you, we are here for you. you can talk to us if you have anything that across your your mind
sleepingprince #3
I hope that you'l feel much better soon. Give some time to yourself.. Go for a holiday or something to release your stress. Try some meditation it helps to relax and calm your mind. Exercising helps too. I heard that banana and vitamin D helps to prevent depression. I think most important is to never give up. If you dont give up then there's hope for everything and you can do anything . Always look at the bright side. After the storm the sun shines again. Seek comfort in God . He will guide you. Whenever you feel that its too hard , remember how far you've been. Think of your family and love ones. In life there's always a turning point . Just never give up. Believe in yourself but believe more in your dreams
ChoiGurl1187 #4
You can talk to me, if you'd like.
It's hard, life's hard but there's a reason for all of it.
Inbox me.
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