I'm honestly pretty disappointed in myself...

Why?

Well, in this program I'm in called JROTC, I applied to be the highest position in my battalion... And I didn't get it...

I worked so hard... Not saying the others didn't, but I was on top of my work, I turned in my paper work on-time or even early, I ask questions whenever I'm confused unlike some people who blames the battalion commander when they shouldve been the ones asking the questions, and I am very close to the younger students.

The person who got the highest position is my friend who I competed against in everything... He won everything, but I finally beat him once... And he didn't do much work this year, unlike me who did A TON OF WORK.

And the second highest person for next year is someone who never did anything, was always turning in work late, never updated our battalion website, has bad grades, and is too quiet that no one works well with that person.

But the new Battalion Commander for next year is someone who I truly love. We have worked together since our freahman year and even if we competed in EVERYTHING against each other, we still worked and congratulated each other for our hard work. And when I was interviewed to be the next BNCO (Battalion Commander) one question was, "Who do you work best with?"

I said my 2 best friends, my boyfriend, and the new BNCO person. They asked me to pick one of them and I said the new BNCO person.

Why didn't I get it? I've been wanting that position since my Sophomore year...

I worked so hard and now as a Company Commander... I'm staying leveled as a Staff next year... 

I could've been up there...

I wish it was me who got it...

I'm sorry for the rant. I just hate to see my hard work go to waste.