I don't know how to say this in the most plainest way possible,but literally my life . It's hard already to be someone which you don't want to be in the first place. Some of you guys might know,but I work in the scientific community which is all fine and prestigious,no doubt. However, it becomes increasingly cumbersome when some one as free spirited as me is expected to act and talk a certain way. Some people might say that I am not cut out for this job,maybe,maybe not. I mean who knows,I feel sad and depressed most of the time and it is literally taking a toll on my health. I feel lethargic,snappy and feverish most of the day,it is really sad,if you ask me. I'm trying to put myself back into place but it is so so very difficult. My parents are very supportive of me of whatever I do,but sometimes they don't understand or want to understand. They are scared that their child is gonna end up doing something incredibly stupid and uncalled for. Dunno,only time will tell.