I miss this.
I miss writing so much. I miss just being able to lose myself in my imaginations and put them down into words. To share them with everyone...but life comes at you fast and suddenly you're so wrapped up in your life and the worries and stress.
I forgot that the reason I dabbled in fanfiction was to escape those very things. To create a world that I ruled. Where my characters stressed and worried over the craziest things and still somehow managed to get their together. If I couldn't do it in my real life--writing allowed me to do just that and then some.
And I miss it so terribly much.
The array of journals with unfinished thoughts. Tangents. Ideas that could be. Should be...may never come to pass. The pens that need to be picked up and used to the very last drop of ink, stare at me--begging me to just write something
The stories that are just itching to be explored and expressed keep getting forgotten. Deleted. Abandoned.
I feel like the site has changed so much and there are so many new, more talented writers on here--I'm apprehensive of starting again. Maybe I won't live up to the expectations of new readers--or even worse, my current readers. I'd be more afraid of coming up short for them..those that have been with me since winglin till now. How can I ever recapture your attention? The thrill, excitement, and "OMFG she didn't!?" attitudes?? Maybe I don't 'fit in' on here anymore?
I don't know...
But...I'm not quitting. No far from it. I think it's time for a comeback...of sorts.
Perhaps...
Love's Cruel Fate Season 3...haha jk. No I don't think I can do a sequel for a sequel. Too much. At least not right now. It's time to finish some other ideas. Possibly Bound? Although Monochrome Kiss has been on my mind these days. PS I went back and read the final chapter of LCF2 and I almost died at all the spelling errors. Holy . Why didn't you guys tell me?! I've had that thing up there for like months with such hideous errors hahaha. I'll work on cleaning that up soon.
Until then...thank you for waiting for me. I'll see you soon in my day dreams. ;)
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