I miss this.

I miss writing so much. I miss just being able to lose myself in my imaginations and put them down into words. To share them with everyone...but life comes at you fast and suddenly you're so wrapped up in your life and the worries and stress.

I forgot that the reason I dabbled in fanfiction was to escape those very things. To create a world that I ruled. Where my characters stressed and worried over the craziest things and still somehow managed to get their together. If I couldn't do it in my real life--writing allowed me to do just that and then some. 

And I miss it so terribly much. 

The array of journals with unfinished thoughts. Tangents. Ideas that could be. Should be...may never come to pass. The pens that need to be picked up and used to the very last drop of ink, stare at me--begging me to just write something

The stories that are just itching to be explored and expressed keep getting forgotten. Deleted. Abandoned. 

I feel like the site has changed so much and there are so many new, more talented writers on here--I'm apprehensive of starting again. Maybe I won't live up to the expectations of new readers--or even worse, my current readers. I'd be more afraid of coming up short for them..those that have been with me since winglin till now. How can I ever recapture your attention? The thrill, excitement, and "OMFG she didn't!?" attitudes?? Maybe I don't 'fit in' on here anymore?

I don't know...

But...I'm not quitting. No far from it. I think it's time for a comeback...of sorts.

Perhaps...
Love's Cruel Fate Season 3...haha jk. No I don't think I can do a sequel for a sequel. Too much. At least not right now. It's time to finish some other ideas. Possibly Bound? Although Monochrome Kiss has been on my mind these days. PS I went back and read the final chapter of LCF2 and I almost died at all the spelling errors. Holy . Why didn't you guys tell me?! I've had that thing up there for like months with such hideous errors hahaha. I'll work on cleaning that up soon.

Until then...thank you for waiting for me. I'll see you soon in my day dreams. ;) 

 

 

 

 

 

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hanbyeol
#1
Hi. I just wanna let you know you don't have to worry about meeting our expectations--at least i can talk for myself--because you are one amazing author! I'm sorry for not commenting on your stories but I promise you I read all your stories (read all the DBSK stories at least 3 times) and I think I kept going back to them, remembering how I was back then when i first read them. Feeling giddy again LOOL but I just wanna let u know I'm having a hard time with my life right now--with school and family. But I decided to go back here in AFF, to take a break from the real world. Although I'm not an author like you, I can easily get lost in my imagination and its my way of escaping all my problems. So here I am, reading fanfics again where I could get lost and feel free again. And your stories are my favorite. You write one of the best DBSK fanfics ever. So please dont give up because i know its not only me whos waiting for you :)
to read all my favorite stories
olmen_BF
#2
Hello, authornim! :D :D We are waiting for you to comeback! You write awesome! Don't doubt that :)
I loved Rhapsody (I read its 80 chaps twice!!!) and My New Divide, they were one of the first sotries I read way back in 2012.
We all know life is not easy so try don't stressing yourself.
Blessings!
linhlady87
#3
I waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant Monochrome Kiss. Lol. The female character is hella cute. I´m curious to read about her adventures with JJ. Please do continue the story. If you ever plan to make a comeback, your story would probably be the only story I´m reading on aff. No one, atleast no ´OG´ ff/jj/dbsk/jyj writers are writing ff´s or updating their stories anymore. I love your writing. I know a lot of people do and will. So, please do continue sharing your talent with the ff world ^^
meeeyi #4
I'm still here!!!.....ish.
To be honest I left for a really long time, stopped reading fics because I couldn't seem to find something I can indulge in. Maybe I'm just not reading from the right authors...or I never got to see their work because they don't circle around the idols that I loved. I didn't even know you finished up LCF2 until a few months after you posted it!

If you're coming back though, I'll be here reading :) still never got to turn into pen pals with you...GOMEN! Maybe let's work on that this year? :P
KNKSMYJHPJKTJJ
#5
It's been a while since I heard from you and I can't wait for your comeback ! Ahahahaha no matter what story you'll wrote I'll still support you! Actually I'm waiting for Bound if you wanna continue writing it! Fighting author-nim
yayiz012 #6
i miss niddie... :) the racer niddie.. :) hehe.. write a new story if you can.. im full support.. :) FIGHTING! :)
dawnxiamara #7
Long time no see or read but, thank you for showing up here in AFF again. Once a writer always a writer but, i guess you have your hands full with life and i hope you will have a new story soon again for us your readers( im keeping my fingers crossed) and please tell me if it is so. As for the typographical errors, thats just fine as long as we readers can understand, who are we to complain.... Please let me know if you are writing a new story again i would gladly subscribe and upvote again... Goodluck and God bless....
ThoseWithGlassHearts #8
I've never read any of your stories but I'm sure readers wouldn't be disappointed; you should never stop doing something you love out of fear. If anything the fear should be a motive to keep going and prove to yourself that you can overcome that fear. I wish you all the best in your writing. ^_^
kpopartory
#9
*wave hand* hello hello, nice to hear from you. WELCOME BACK!!
UrikoSakura
#10
Lol.. What a dramatic comeback.. If it's a comeback. Is it? ;)
Not many of us are active still. Anyway, see you around Bea. *waves furiously*