"Unexpected"

 

That's how we called you then.

Caused too much panic.

Brought about too much secrecy.

We were literally on our toes, anxious, scared, not quite knowing what to do.

We were brats.

Teenagers who were still on their way to adulthood.

I hope you found amusement in our reactions back then.

I hope our 'panic mode' had you smiling and giggling in your mom's womb.

 

 

It really was scary.

Your mom's anxiousness had the whole gang on edge.

Your dad was scared too, though he tried not to show it, but he was, we'd stand witnesses if he claimed he wasn't!

 

 

We had bets on what gender you'd be.

Whose eyes would you have.

Whose smile would you show us.

Whose laugh would you let us hear.

Who'd be your favorite aunt/uncle.

Would she/ he be even among us?

We even argued who'd be babysitting you when the parents go on a date.

Had plans to take you to Sunday walks, ice cream dates, and even just to cuddle you to sleep.

 

You were unexpected..

But we were excited to see you.

You're their first angel.

The first baby in our tight little group.

 

 

Months of waiting passed like just days.

I think it was just excitement or anxiety that made it seem so.

But..anyway..

THE DAY CAME!

 

You were finally coming out!

Oh, boy, how you made us all a worrywart!!!

Jumpy.

 

Anxiously pacing.

 

Endless chatters.

 

Annoying-the-hospital-staffs-to-no-end.

Those were just some of the things that can describe all of us on your birthdate.

It took some time.

You literally knew how to play the waiting game with us!

Minutes dragged to hours..

We thought you'd made us wait for a day longer!

Then..

 

'It's a boy!'

 

 

We didn't hear you cry though.

 

Your mom was too exhausted to say anything.

But smiles were on our faces.

 

The waiting room was in happy cheer!

We knew you were already here!

 

An angel among us.

 

Thank you, God.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Your parents didn't expect you.

But you were their happiness.

You could see it in their eyes.

They were at a lost to what should be done..

To how they should cope up with having a baby as early as this.

But they did what they thought they should do.

And they made it, 5 years of bliss.

5 years of having an angel by their side.

 

Of having an angel by our side.

 

 

 

 

 

Our plans..

 

They were almost halfway done.

You had your mother's eyes.

Dad's brows.

 

 

But the smile was uniquely yours.

 

 

The laugh too.

 

 

 

The first time I held you in my arms,I admit, I was scared out of my wits when you were handed to me.

I had to make your mom stay close just to make sure I wouldn't do something dumb.

But you were an angel.

I think you felt my nervousness, so you gave way and behaved..

Or my voice was just too "boring" I've put you to sleep.

Or you got exhausted being passed on from too eager aunts and uncles and you decided to just 'sleep it off'...starting from me. (-_-?) TTuTT

I was amazed at how teeny tiny you looked from those bundles of sheets your mom had you wrapped up with.

Your entire hand can only hold on to one of my fingers.

Too delicate.

You made us feel overprotective.

Made us feel that we had to be good role models.

 

To do our best to show you the world wasn't a hopeless, unforgiving place.

 

 

 

Happiness.

 

 

 

That's what your 'unexpected' arrival in our lives gave.

 

 

 

 

 

 

But I don't know what happened..

 

 

 

 

Because in just a flash..

 

 

 

You were taken from us.

 

 

 

 

We didn't even had the chance to go strolling yet.

 

 

 

 

Didn't had the chance to fight for the favorite aunt yet.

 

 

 

Didn't had the chance to go on ice cream dates yet.

 

 

 

Our plans ended with one call.

 

 

 

One call..

 

 

 

 

One call had put an end to all the plans..

 

 

 

You're gone.

 

 

I tried to say, it's not our angel.

 

 

Refused to acknowledge it.

 

Maybe they just have the same name.

 

 

And age..

 

 

And just coincidentally lived in the same place.

 

 

 

I was in denial.

 

 

But hearing your mom's cries over the phone had me in tears.

 

 

I don't know how much pain she was in.

 

How much pain they are in right now.

 

 

But from the pain I am feeling...

 

 

I could only imagine how it would be like for them.

 

 

The hurt must be thousands of times more than mine.

 

 

The pain a million times more.

 

 

 

The loss..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Unexpected.

 

 

That was how it was again.

 

God gave you unexpectedly.

 

 

And then..

 

 

 

He decided to take you back.

 

 

 

 

I guess..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

He misses his angel.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Please.

 

 

 

Wherever you are right now, baby, please, be safe.

 

 

Know that we love you.

 

And we miss you terribly.

 

I pray that your in GOD's arms now.

 

Safe in HIS Angels' Sanctuary.