my first time posting a blog.

I don't normally blog but this has been bothering me for the past few days now.

I'm a choreographer for a Super Junior cover group. Not the real super junior but a group of boys dancing to super junior songs.  I met these boys just barely 2 weeks ago during Super Show 3. They asked for my help and I said yes. I met about 5 of them (Nigel, Karl, Jop, Raymond and Patrick). There were 10 boys in the group. They're all younger than me. Karl is the nearest my age, he's 19. They're really fun kids to be with, fairly good dancers too. I've known Jop and Patrick for like 8 months now.

about 3 days ago, I met another one of the boys. Nigel and Jop told me about him already. He kinda looks like DooJoon, specially on the eyes. So, naturally I was excited to meet him because I was so curious. I actually snooped around Facebook and he really really does kinda look like DooJoon.

So, anyway back to the story, Friday, we were practicing with a SHINee and SNSD cover group which were my friends as well. Patrick came in practice really late because he was sick. He showed up when we were about to go to the seamstress to get their costumes. Patrick came with him. His name is Kenneth but we call him Kim and he's 17. And lo and behold, HE REALLY DOES LOOK LIKE A YOUNGER YOON DOOJOON. I had to stop myself from freaking out. Good thing Daniel (from the SHINee cover group) walked by and I talked to him to distract myself.

It was awkward. Mostly because I was nervous to talk to him. But anyway I did. Nigel and Jop were teasing me because he looks like DooJoon. We were on our way to the seamstress and I couldn't stop looking at him.

the boys were fitting their clothes except Kenneth. He was sitting down next to me. Patrick and I are really close so when he was done, he sat down on my right and held my hand and started acting all cute and what not. He's really a sweet kid so I was joking with him. I took my hand off his and held Kenneth's hand, telling Patrick that I didn't like him any longer.

To my surprise, he didn't mind holding hands with me.So, we just stayed like that. We were even holding hands as we walked to a nearby restaurant to eat dinner. After dinner, it was really really late already so Patrick asked me if I wanted to sleep over at Candice's condo so I said yes coz I thought it would be just me, Candice and her 3 sisters plus Patrick. BUT THEN, Kenneth decided to come with us. So, when we got to Candice's condo, she was alone.

YEAH, it was me, Kenneth, Patrick and Candice. We walked to McDonalds because Candice hasnt had dinner yet. After that we decided to watch Drag Me To Hell, which was a bad movie if you asked me. Then Candice was like, "Donna, you can sleep on the other bed with Kenneth. I'll sleep with Patrick.

IN MY MIND, I WAS LIKE, O. One, I've never slept with another guy before. Two, I'm a really light sleeper. Three, I can't sleep without anything to hug. Four, I'M GONNA ING SLEEP BESIDE A KID THAT LOOKS LIKE YOON DOOJOON AND I'VE ONLY KNOWN HIM FOR LIKE 5 HOURS.

yeah. Kenneth didn't mind, or maybe he did but he didn't show it. I asked him if he minds that I'm a hugger and he said it was ok. So anyway, we shared the bed. I hugged him from behind. Being the light sleeper I am, I woke up 6-7 times. One time I did, I cursed under my breath because I was so shocked that he ing looks like DooJoon. -___- I woke up when he started snoring. I woke up when it was light out side. I woke up when he turned around. Yeah, VERY light sleeper.

Anyway, morning came and he was teasing me. He said I was jerking back and forth. and I told him, I'm a light sleeper. Anyway, we went home at around 9am. I slept for a while, got up went to rehearsals with my BEAST, MBLAQ and 4MINUTE cover group. Yeah, I choreograph for a lot of cover groups.

After practice, I went to 1Esplanade which was a huge hall for concerts, etc. My SNSD and SHINee cover group friends were performing so I went to watch. AND YES, he's there. He was actually with me the WHOLE FREAKIN' NIGHT, HOLDING MY HAND. INTERTWINED WITH HIS. ALL my friends were teasing me about him.

To be honest, I really like the kid. But I'm scared. I'm scared for no good reason at all. Well, mostly scared because he's young. REALLY YOUNG. He's 17. I'm 20. He's in highschool. I'm working. I'm open about alot of things, but I'm scared of liking this little kid.

HONESTLY I HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM. But I don't want to like him like him. nameen? Its scary.